Posted on | Wednesday, May 23, 2012 |
i won.. and now its no fun.
the burden on me now to keep it going.
burden. see how not ikhlas i am.
i cant keep my lust to myself
thats a major problem
i wonder if do i have iman at all?
feeling things never enough.
feeling empty. this is scary.
i still remember those saying.
if you feel empty you are too far away from Allah.
:/
when life is too stagnant, so routine. its boring... tired... its exhausting... especially when we live our life by the rules. we might say / admit that we are carefree. but we are not. hu hu. we only pake carefree pun pantyliner........we keep on planning though hinting that it wont work out. but.. hey, hang on and carry on.
its nobody fault we act differently towards life... towards relationship... towards parents... whose fault if we curang ayh?
i do judge people. on little things. i can say that person is ceridak if she/he wash their underware in bulk... once a week. heh... but hey. they save on energy, time, sabun omo etc by doing that...
and i do takut orang judge me. mun sik, lamak dah ku jumpa my partner pun family and i wont be nervous time presentation. sik pande jawap soalan, lalu bodoh lah kita tok tek? hu. why cant i just be happy and sakai about it oh. sobs.
i found that, always trying to do the best do take toll on us.... some ppl live happily and nicely without doing their best pun... keja apa2 saja... blaja pun gitu2 saja... aiming biasa2 aja... hm. we should be that happy and stressfree too but, never stop to do our best selagi mampu, why not kan...
yesterday, am down... SMS two person that i tot closest to me... yet they replied two different things. he... satu saya suka. satu saya tak suka. hu hu hu. in other term, sorang kenal saya, sorang gik tak kenal saya pun maybe. one looking forward to cheer me up in a way pushing me to do things up to my limit whereas the other one, straighforward, if i dont like it or not ready, simply say it a quit. then i realize, o... former knew me and know how to handle me.. the latter, you are young and somehow i think you are cool but thats not my style ergh. and, tinggi ignorance kawu.
to conclude, setelah dibaca semula petikan di atas. sungguh mengarei isi-isinya dan begitulah benda di kepala saya.
till then, hang on erin. and opkos, you too.
when there were too many guys to choose from. (mun jak tek). tapi ini mesti sentiasa berlaku ngan empuan kacak nak hoh. if it does happen,
dont choose the better man..
choose the one that makes u better..
ecewahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. lekak ya tek.. selalu dengar best man win. best girl win. tapi sepanjang perjalanan ini........
the worse guy / girl win le.
since they played well lah. herherherher. ofkoz for a short term pun game la hoh... jarang juak mun mok lain long term pun game pake cara kotor since i do believe in karma. muahaha
and lastly. today is World Turtle Day. muahs.
