live your life randomly

invitedddd!

2012-01-27T22:59:00.000-08:00

officially invited to meet the family.
ouh ouh.
baruk jak mok date ngan nyenun nyeya rah spring.
declined lah.

realitinya...
almost 90 family members coming.
his family members at my age are his anak buah / his parents' pun cucuk.
SO HOW LAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
hahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa daym.

sik tauk.

the best part...

i dono i dono i dono.
smaller party for me pls. :<
and i am not the proper me, yet.
ah!

Paraphilias

2012-01-22T21:18:00.000-08:00

Wiki stated : paraphilia being a biomedical term used to describe sexual arousal to objects, situations, or individuals that are not part of normative stimulation and that may cause distress or serious problems for the paraphiliac or persons associated with him or her. A paraphilia involves sexual arousal and gratification towards sexual behavior that is atypical and extreme

The list of paraphilias, click here

Am not a paraphiliac, but am mcm got tendency to fall into Biastophilia and Somnophilia. Sowhat are you?

Haha. Mabok. K babaii.

kinkay!!!

2012-01-22T14:06:00.000-08:00

lets get kinky.
never ever tot of having dreams.. and they came true.
stupid kinky dream act.
oh maybe not stupid. absurd kinky dream. muahahah

could be... (or they were.. tett)

relationship with a duda, bapak orang, or datuk orang.
relationship with your acquaintances. (teacher, prof, cleaner? hjahaha)
relationship with your own friends, like bestfriends.

oh "you-know-what-relationship" !.

in the end, kita human je. apa2 boleh jadi. kan kan kan. so live with it. enjoyyyyy
(label or pangkat we put them aside)
and. no harm to test the market. laku duhal tek.
tp. laku can be in a cheap way too oh.
ah sudah la. keep it simple and keep on moving.
nyam nyam.

till then. Happy CNY! Tahun Naga. Tahun saya la itu. Lalu mak mintak cia bager. Apa kaitan itu kak kayah???? Heheh.

2012

2012-01-18T18:53:00.000-08:00

2011. aim agak tercapai lah. which was bersenam. yang penting. sik berasa pun sedang bersenam. since main volleyball dengan kawan-kawan hari2. ala2 aktiviti riadah jak pun. still, accccommpliishhed!

2012. aim saya adalah kurangkan sexy. kurang sexy. bukan sik sexy terus. itu mungkin impossible. tp might be possible. so. amin amin aminkan.

kawan2 byk settle down 2012-2013. so. biar perlahan asal selamat. good luck friends on ur ehem. muah muah.

one stop

2012-01-18T02:47:00.000-08:00

i love my blog because it has most of the links that i love. so the links on the right bars are my casual surfing sites. especially DIY, fashion and home deco. local blog ? sometimes.

my blog. m. is my one stop site for me ah! sume ade.

so, too add more. (sekda tempat mok copy paste act) wakakaka.

1. http://www.kakidownload.com/ (mostly movies)
2. http://minishares.org/ (tv series)
3. http://www.ddmf.biz/ (movies)
4. http://mediafiremovie.org/ (mostly asian/hollywood movies, selected tv series & korean drama)
5. http://www.teamaryzs.com/ (mostly local movies & drama)
6. http://myjaki.blogspot.com/ (mostly local drama)
7. http://mediafirefreaks.blogspot.com/ (tv series)

im not a hardcore in dl.. tp, tiba-tiba rasa lonely.. and DIY pun sik gerak. Labwork pun lom start. gerek and scandal pun away. apa kata kita donlot2. chill~

addicted to NEW GIRL. ;p

erin

2011-12-25T00:46:00.000-08:00

you are strong, inside and outside.
but there are times when you are weak..
leading is a no no
all u want to do is leaning...
others will lead you..

few leaders, we chose the best.
those with less expectancies, could be the best.

its not that i dont i want to spend time with some of you
its that im too scared to be hurt at the end
if we failed to achieve what we need to achieve
im just simple me. scared of every little thing.

ZzZzz stupid weekend.

save come to sarawak

2011-11-25T19:55:00.000-08:00

haji tambi dah nak sampai... jam 1 ptg, and now still 11 am. mestilah bukan aku yg fetch nya. hauhau. and he'll be directly go to clinic. high fever. and kenak drip gik time d sinun. apudek. yg specialnya, demam terok only after settle semua ibadat. syukur.

konklusinya. aku sik curang sepanjang nya sekda. nyawa ya ada. tp. sik. haha. pencapaian yg baik. syabas bette. syabas. seriously, tercabar iman aku. (boleh pulak aku cerita intention aku mok curang eh?? biarlah.) aku rasa tok tanda2 bagus untuk settle down. mueahaha. ahh sudahlah!

thanks to labwork. volleyball and futsal. and vibrator. eh hahaha.


this is my life so far. (sad oh??) as i said, spent most of my life on study and orgasm. haha i wish to travel! soonnnn


volleyball. me on the right. tengah sawan kali.every evening at 5 until 7. dalam gelap pun on okay!

futsal. aok. ball oren rah burit aku ya ball futsal. still new to this. very tiring but worth it. this activity only at 9 pm and above. then kol 12 am baruk balit bilit. so bila masa aku nak molah writing ku?? aku pun sik tauk! hahaha

eh gambar vibrator sekda. wakkwak

k. till then.

2011-11-08T03:55:00.000-08:00

its a hard road without romance in yer life nyeh.

stress.
lonely.
sad.
lost.

(SLSL)

hahah

single is not an option!

single means dead unless if u r a pg or a pb. then single is a bless. muahaha

*pg pb: playgirl playboy.

but, if it happens that u r double but no romance in the air. still, SLSL!!!

warghh. apaker. tediat kembar tambi indah tek. pppui!!!! lawak.

menyedihkan

2011-11-03T02:01:00.000-07:00

nak dikatakan kaya. tidak juga.
tapi ada la duit.

menjadi suatu yg menyedihkan apabila......

erin. mintak no pon abah kitak. kmk ada bisnes bagus!

oh. dlm hatiku. why not. abah dah sik keja. ney tauk ada investment yg bagus.
so berik lah.

lekak beberapa minggu.
terbukak lah cerita.
oh mok polah loan ngan abah sebab sik mampu bayar loan bank.
erkkkkkkkk?

pertama, aku rasa terbulak gilak2. bisnes bagus cam sial dowh. dah lah aku yg berik nombor abah. then ngakuk lah ngan abah, mek berik no ya. ZzzzzZzz.

second, sungguh sik sihat polah loan untuk bayar loan. for me lah. sik tauk lah mun dah kenak dahi dikpun.

then..
mun orang nak jarang gila kontek kita, tetiba kontek kita.
yerrrrrrrrrrrrrr. bebunga juak hati tek, ada papa kah. hehe. ka rindu ka. huhu
sekali tek. o. pinjam duit.
sapa kerja sapa blaja tok.
boring kuuuuuuuuu

and sesungguhnya..

menyedihkannnnnn lah.

tapi so far, paling bodo adalah, dalam fb, kawan yg baruk add di fb, kawan sama sekolah, last betemu time darjah 3 or 4. tiba2 pm fb, the mok pinjam sratus. tp sik berik lah.
so macam........

sangat menyedihkannnnnn.

sik tauk lah ktk orang. mana yg bekerja, lagik lah byk orang gatal nak minjam nak.

k till then.

kecik hati. ppppui !!!

2011-11-02T04:11:00.000-07:00

its normal to kecik hati.
some people easy to kecik hati and some susah.
aku time pms cepat kecik hati.
time hormon ok, aku yg mengecikkan hati orang tanpa niatku or tanpa sengaja.

persoalan di sini.
perlukah melayan nyawa kecik hati itu?

idontthinkso!

sebab ianya akan meleret leret lalu membaham segala jiwa yg terlibat.
apatah lagi dalam kehidupan dalam kumpulan kecil yang setiap hari bertemu.

ketika kecik hati.
bagi yang pandai cover, sebab tak mahu yang lain tahu dan tidak mahu menyusahkan keadaan,
muka orang yg kecik hati akan blur sekejap lalu buat2 happy.
kat hati, perghh bergelegak. bukan marah, tapi kecik hati lah!
nafas pun mula nak cungap2.
fokus pun ilang.

manakala, orang yg terlupa nak cover kecik hati or nang sik pande nak cover or memang tak nak cover,
muka nya lamakkkkkkkkkkkkkkk jak blur.
dan lalu berubah menjadi masammmmmm!

aisehmen...

kita dah besar.
kecik hati sudah mampu dikawal.

fikir secara waras,

adakah perlu kecik hati?
adakah perlu untuk menunjukkan kekecikkan hati itu secara fizikal?
jiwa lebih aman kah kecik hati itu diluahkan secara fizikal?
membawa perubahan kah?
berkesan kah?

tepuk dada tanya selera.

tapi ngan gerek best kecik hati.
saya merajuk, pujuklah saya.
TAPI style paling bekesan adalah, bayarlah barang2 saya dalam bakul Guardian tu.

haha.

till then.

*barukjakkecikhatitek,tapimacamsebabPMS,soitsokay!*

Nyawa

2011-10-16T10:45:00.001-07:00

Nyawa mok flirt kuat sungguh. Sik nyaman nyawa. And sungguh kurang nyawa nektok. omgggggggggg. lamak nya 7 minggu????????????????????????????

Day 4 without you

2011-10-13T01:34:00.001-07:00

lalu rasa gai molah post sebegini rupa. haha

Nasihat

2011-10-12T23:33:00.000-07:00

I wish to do a shortcut on something.

I went for nasihat & opinion lah tek. Starting last year asking sana sini.

From the superseniors, seniors, and oso the colleagues.

Orang atas strongly agree and support.

Orang sama geng pun strongly agree. Geng mek orang tok geng never say never bah. Kamikaze.

But orang sama level and senior sikit dari aku berik komen ala2 down sungguh.

"its not worth it"

"our institution is not that kuat- yet"

ouch.

but at this very moment. aku cayak ngan orang yg lebih tua dari aku lahh. they ve done it, so why not! i might be the first here. to those yang kurang menggalakkan, we'll see lah.

the reason i insist on the shortcut is i want to settle down and have kids. kwang3. why notttttt.

day 2 without you

2011-10-11T10:11:00.000-07:00

You are still in KL. Will fly to Jedah at 1 am in the moaaaarningg. Nyawa lemah lemah gik ada. When will i gain my nyawa balit? Baruk duak hari. Puiii!!!

Ada lah dlm fb org share, Distance is nothing if the love is real. Yerrrrrrrrr. Aok jak.

Then, u mms-ed me photos. Eh, pande pulak! Haha. Before tok time kenak paksa2 ada lah gambar yang kurang memberangsangkan received.

He's on the left..... Anyway anywhow, u owes ehemm to my eyes.

So....... sekda papa lah. Kuat gilak ku main lamak tok. Need to be back on track. Sv suroh ready for ehem ehem. Cakap senang la oh. Nervous.

DAY 1 WITHOUT YOU

2011-10-09T23:47:00.000-07:00

OK. u left for hajji.

today was great. doing my work as usual. felt nothing. just felt a bit weird when i saw u hugged my aunt at home. totally lain. *tahan aek mata*. so it would be the best if i didn't sent you to the airport. which i did not.

hm.. till then. counting days. 45 days. will be back on nov 26th. ouhhh. i know u r so excited lah. to be in Jeddah. Madinah etc. have fun! so do i. he pesan me to berolah! bukan not berolah. tapi. "sayang berolah lah k, its fun!". haha. i will sayang. as usual.

the zone

2011-09-20T21:12:00.000-07:00

comfort zone. whats your? have you?

mine would be my study (for now). since am the only person controlling it. with few disturbances. few kerrrrrr. byk jer!!! tapi iyolah. my study @ lab work is the it. the it......

mun ada masalah dunia yg lain..
aku akan rindu labwork...
then i'll focus...
mun sekda masalah dunia lain pun aku akan polah kerja lah.
aiseh.
and..
gembira ku pande something tanpa di guide.
achievement yg hevvat bagiku walaupun berempas pulas sik tdo pagi kah apa kah demi learning session while orang lain 5 menet jak alu faham lekak di ajar aku tek.
(ceh, rela gik nunggu aku faham ya then mintak ajar. hahaha)
but the feeling is there.
though at times, rasa sik best sekda guidance from the pro,
tp ada byk kebaikkan nya
survival rate ko tinggi Erin!
aahhaha.
suara lain bebunyi * A D A A K U K E S A H *

tapi aku dah idle mcm brapa bulan ntah. bz here and there. with very few results, hopefully significant!

tgh molah poster actually. for genetics congress in Pullman Hotel, Kuching...
genetics sungguh la bukan bidang aku, but i did few things and joined the congress.
so expect the unexpected lah. uh uh uh.
segan pun ada.
sik apa lah. mari bekenalan dengan orang ramai.
lalu mencuci mata kaki dan kuku.
huahua.

baiklah!

a month

2011-09-20T20:54:00.000-07:00

will be in a distance relationship for a month. warkkkk. its time to curang then. epic sungguhh.

to be away that long. ish ish. i donno. it was a routine for him to have a day trip to kl. going there in morning and back at middleee offf the nigghttt. usually because of me (mun jak tek). or else i'll pok pek pok pek complaining he's away and cannot this that bla bla bla. simple, its hard without him. wu wu wuwuu.

now. it will be a month. scary. repuk nyawa ku. haha. bayar posa nazar aku lah. ada 15 hari gik. hahaha. ok ya 15 hari, dlm ku reput2 & layu2 insyaAllah ku sik rindu nya gilak. the next 15 days?? polah boddo. aaah. lab work le. stay sampe reput dlm lab. why not!

lalu ada bunyi berkata.. *G E T A L I F E *. o tedah.

maskulin kah ?

2011-08-18T20:58:00.000-07:00


the sunlight. indicating the kiblat.

the bed.

Aku rasa bilik aku a bit maskulin......

Delizze Premier 101

2011-08-18T20:34:00.000-07:00

Hi. Im in love with someone old, but sexy (mata ku sorang). Biggest disadvantage (yeke biggest) cant eat like hell anymore. Have to consider him, whether he can eat it or not. Wek. I want to have sirloin steak, but i know he will curi2 mine and he end up mengengsot the next day, don't want to tell the exact illness, UKIK lah. Nagging.

Mengong part was i decided to order marinara, but unconsciously (haha) i said carbonara. Apakah!!!

Mr Sexy with his unshaven bulu.

the weather was just nice.

ya standard captured lah. the menu.

Im not into reviewing the menu or the place. Something i noticed ppl who reviewed them did not mentioned that they do have this open air space. I like. Spent the breakfasting moment there! Best dowh. Inside the Delizze, urm, biasa jak lah, just not for chilling but the open air space, it is for chilllangggg~.

Ah, still mok comment on the menu, limited on western, local only have nasi goreng special and mee mamak, lol. The pastry, limited too. Maybe not my day. The drinks iboh cerita lah.

But my carbonara was good. Just like the western, the more u pay, the more u get. I mean the volume. Byk gila carbonara itu. Penoh tapak! Suddenly wish to go there again to try their marinara. Duh.

Act Like a Lady, Think Like a Man

2011-08-06T11:03:00.000-07:00

dah tua ka aku. ka aku insan yg bosan. ka aku manusia biasa jak lah. suka baca komik. magazine sik beli sebab mostly update kat internet je. now pun komik dah jarang beli. sebab dah lain rasa. mok baca komik online sik feeling. now aku baca buku motivation jak. (yeke)

novel? waduh. jaoh! prefer movie lah. ada novel steamy2, aku rasa bagus polah jak. love story pun novel. aku rasa cukuplah ngan kebahagiaan aku ngan tambi. mun lebih2 baca lak aku rasa sik content lak. kah3. even now pun sik brapa nak content. apa gik lak mun d provoke oleh keindahan cintan cintun dlm novel ya. yew

pendekkan cerita. aku mok berik link k download buku Act Like a Lady - Think Like a Man. Ala2 buku Man from Mars bla3 ya...

so. dah donlod. transferred to my e72. k mok baca lok. daaaaaa. (sekda e-book jajajaj, butak jak la mata baca k hp)

Beranak Kelak

2011-07-27T07:57:00.000-07:00

ha! Mari kita berbicara. Kalau dah beranak kelak, nak anak belajar dekat ka jaoh-jaoh. Ke kalau ada 5 orang anak. Kasi la any yg atas2 tu belajar jaoh, 2 ekor stay belajar dekat-dekat jer.

Ke suruh yg bongsu tu belaja dalam negeri jak! Or tak kesah lah! Form 3 4 5 pun hantar je lah full boarding semua nya tu. Biar aman rumah. And tak perlu meredah jam antar anak g sekolah, kk or tuitionnnn. Hehe. Sapa diam kat bandar merasalah. Sapa diam ala2 rural, suroh anak kayoh sikal lah. Jajajja.

Kalau memang suroh anak belajar jaoh demi masa depan dan demi pengalaman yg luar giler, ok juak. just macam defeat the purpose ada anak la pulak. Hohoho. Apa macam!?

erin bersahaja

2011-07-27T04:09:00.000-07:00

what to write. actually i prefer to not to know who read my blog. insecurity kah? kali.

its been a year. and its not to forget things oh. just realized that. im not sad. just terkilan. sik nyesal. just better if it does not happened. but i love the experience. her her her. apa kamu melalut ini erin.

ok. mari saya cakap pasal partner saya. dia besar. dia hitam2. dia hairy jugak. what i like bout him were... he sayang me so the very much. huahuaa. bestnya. (konfiden giler). it been a while. we were together since my spm. on off. then during matrix baru kompom lah. aisehmen.

so bila mahu kawen lah. lapok nye soalan. saya pun tak tahu. mak cakap, kakak mesti kawen dulu. pui!!!!!!! (eh. mcm nak madah kakak lambat gila gik mok nikah, hahaha - ada la juak. haha). sik tauk lah. sik best polah dosa jak2. awal aher nikah sik kesah. bak kata sigek cerita ya. its about us. not about getting engaged, married bla3. eh senang nya movie tu cakap. tp mcm betoi jugak since orang cerai berai ala2 tarapapa ja di zaman ini. nauzubillah.

cerai. yalah! mcm sekda papa dah. becakap pasal kawen cerai ni.. saya dah mula pergi mana2 jemputan kawen. her her herher. ada yg kecik. ada besar. ada yg berVIP. ada yang dudok makan lantai je. tapi nang jarang la mok nemu yg makan seperah atas lantai ya lah. rah kpg pun dah ber khemah, and dudok meja pjg la.. tp feeling bersela makan tetundok tundok nang classic lah. dah la baju susah nak dudok. haha makanya harus pake baju kurong biasa yg tapeh nya memang ada lipat2 itu so that senang nak dudok naik berselak etc2.

okla.. nanti crapping on random things lagi nyeh. oh ya. pa perasan tak orang mun mak madah nya suka gik ngan gerek ktk orang yg dolok nun gik tek, not the recent. pui!!!! sik kesah pun, i know sapa yg boleh pake sik leh d pake. hahaha. hanya kita yg tahu. tak gitu. k til then.

Taylor Momsem

2011-07-09T08:52:00.000-07:00

ah itu dia. Jenny Humprey dalam GG. dislike the character since nya wannabe. then suddenly nya in goth rock band yg bebaju ala slut2. gtu2 >> pretty reckless. and thinking nya totally wannabe. so dlm ignored list. tp mlm ni, tergerak hati meng youtube kan taylor momsem.

and. suprisingly, she's good in acoustic. wasehmen. lalu aku mengdownload lah. jarang aku mok donwload2 okay. sadly, if it was a gig, lalu pening palak ku dengar bunyi yg terlalu banyak. so go for acoustic jak lah. nya dengan lelaki bergitar yg suara rocker habis itu. LOIKE.

favourite so far. Zombie by Pretty Reckless.

yeah. boleh masok mp3 jogging aku. hehe. limp bizkit, mindless self indulgence & pretty reckless oh? yezzaa. lagu keras emosi2 bagus pake jogging, amarah mengenai lemak. u know. jajaja. k till then.

2011-07-06T09:50:00.000-07:00

Akuuuu telahhh membakingggg untuk pertama kali nya. HAhahahaha. Best juak lah!!!! Cayaklahhhhhh.

Inspirasi?

Mak Hanis Zalikha: Nani Rostam

Farah Marzuki due to her 'Foodoraphy' FB album. ah even her blog is blog-licious. sik bagus d agak selalu gilak. ponek kelak huh.

and Masterchef (which they cook anything eh!)

my 1st trial was based on this. besar cita cita aku nak molah pavlova @ puff lova ! hahaha. ok. jam 8 malam baruk nak carik bahan due to boredness. tambi lah mangsa.

whipped cream aku sik jumpa. blur. was the item labelled as cream only or whipping cream. as mayb the item is mainly a cream, then after being whipped, then it became whipping cream. eh whipped cream. uh blur. then mak balit rumah padah whipping cream is whipping cream lah. mahal. occayyyyy.

white vinegar?? assume it he normal vinegar but none at home, ended up using limau kasturi. kah3!

castor sugar. boleh blur sebab ada custard sugar. eurghh.

other than that. ok lah. haha

since hanya percobaan.

tok hasilnya. ada 8 benda tok terhasil. kah3.


mini pavlova without its whipped cream and its fruit.

kiutttttttt. mcm taik kata mak tek. urh. apa2 pun. kacak nya. texture nya pun ala2 spt yg di google. so happy. next time jumpa whipping cream boleh try full! besday sapa next?? abah n kak lina? jajaja.

ok. jgn ketawakan saya. everybadi was a noob. XD

totally a noob la as the real pavlova looks like this. haha

random erin again.

2011-07-04T12:09:00.000-07:00

i was bored. so constructing my not so new project. jajajaja. 'the random shop by erin' was a blog previously. now, turning it into fb page for better approachness. heh.

the profile picture

then the LIKE BOX. Like lah! Even though there's nothing there yet. Nyeheheheh. Still choosing and hunting stuff for sell actually. Oklah, till then! :)

biasa saja

2011-05-30T07:11:00.000-07:00

sometimes you just need something that's simple, familiar and satisfying. benar nak? thats why sik senang mok fall for benda lain or orang lain walaupun sesungguhnya benda or orang lain itu lebih bagus, lebih indah, serba serbi lebih dari apa yang kita ada.

tp sometimes jak eh?? so most of the time we want more and more-er!? kui kui kui kui. tepuk dada tanya selera.

sivik aku

2011-05-11T07:37:00.000-07:00

dolok aku sungguh la berdisiplin dan skema. nektok ada la juak. tp dah kurang sivik. muahaha. nak kelaka hal nangga wayang.

biasanya, amik seat dengan penoh etika.

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

ok imagine 1 til 10 itu adalah seat. dengan skema nya aku amik seat 1 and 2 or 9 and 10. suka ujong2 dunia sak sekda orang lain.

lately. salu polah keja bodoh. amik seat 2 and 3 or 8 and 9. so that aku boleh gurin sambil kepalak d atas paha or perut partner dengan adanya seat extra pada seat 1 or 10. or sekadar menjadi ruang melunjurkan kaki! hahaha.

aku fikir aku jak polah keja bodo ya tek. rupa2 nya ada gik orang bangang. time fast and furious 5, dudok seat row ujong. ada empat seat jak.

1 2 3 4

ada manusia depan aku amik seat 2 and 4. aehhhhhh. haha. taktik sidak berjaya. sebab, aku n partner amik seat 2 and 3, tp ada manusia sesat boleh pulak end up seat 1. so, kacau daun lah!! hahaha. oh anyway. stim diat vin diesel and the rock. eh the rock, ktk kedak tambi! slurps.

tipu dan tertipu

2011-05-09T05:48:00.000-07:00

ada satu kejadian. sorang penipu. sorang mangsa tipu. dua-dua pihak malu. mereka adalah kenalan. penipu malu kerana menipu. si mangsa tipu pula malu kerana boleh pulak kenak tipu sewenang-wenangnya???!!!!!!

so dalam kes begini. semua orang malu. tp pada pendapat aku, si penipu harus approach dolok lah. ko yang berdosa menipu. hark ptuih. yg mangsa tu. polah jak la muka tebal sebab begitu bodoh boleh di tipu! huh. aku sebenarnya mangsa ya tek. hahahhaa. cilaka sungguh.

*ini adalah kisah benar dan juga kiasan untuk cerita lain. heh. malu kuuuuuuuu

say Hi!

2011-05-09T05:40:00.000-07:00

"Tidak halal bagi seorang muslim tidak bertegur sapa lebih dari tiga hari, yang lebih baik antara keduanya adalah yang memulakan salam." (HR Bukhari)

ecewah. oh semestinya aku pernah purposely tidak bertegur sapa. certain people lah. dah nyawa bencik, k apa ku nego? tapi, setelah semakin berumur, aku coba juak mok buang, though kadang2 sungguh la sik ikhlas. tapi apa boleh buat, benda yang sik akan ke mana, dan juga akan semakin buruk jika tak bertegur, tebal jak la saying hi. and its up to the other side to reply or ignore. saya ok je. muka aku pernah lebih tebal dari situasi jilat ludah sendiri. kehidupan bah tokkk. bulak ktk orang sekda jilat lidah dikpun! ptuih. nah jilat lah. wakkaaka.

ludah. jilat balit. then ludah balik, then jilat. then ludah sambil muntah balit. pun pernah juga la! bak kata tambi, "baruk sikit ya, u'll learn it when you through". AOK TAMBI. makanya, saya sesungguh nya sudah kental part ludah n jilat lidah tok. keh3. pusing2. sia juak dunia ko bah. ok.

stalk ing

2011-05-04T08:14:00.000-07:00

i do stalk people but in harmless way lah. go tru what ever on the net by googling theirs name ka, ex ka, brother ka. eh over. huhu. tipu jer. fb and blog would be the most.

sometimes, i wonder, do people stalk me? lawak.

stalking allow me skill up my assumption world. keh3. best wooh. the sad thing is my instinct always right. since my assumption world mainly bias of the negative side. ahaeuhau. so it is sad. sob sob sob.

i did tried to stop stalking. did deleted few so called famous-kacak-ppl in fb. yang bebenar kenal and or at least ada tego2 rah fb jak remained. tapi why wujud such term as stalking sedangkan tuan punya fb or blog yang publish everything. tp still padah orang stalk?? IRONY.

tp aku nang ngakuk la aku ada juak follow2 orang saja mok updates. orang kacak. orang berkaitan ngan orang kacak. siap. haha

ok lah.

susah ke senang ke apa ke

2011-05-04T07:42:00.000-07:00

heyyy. byk gilak harapan and expectations. susah susah. why cant i live a simple and happy life. gai nya~!

just to share.. few of my friends, and cousins jaoh2 got married. sidak biasa2 jak. and married. and happy. (they do look happy!). and they do look content! ku tauk idup sidak sik senang ney. still berusaha ke arah kesenangan. urhhhhhh. some ppl obviously, shown, eh entah, mcm sik puas ngan idup sekarang. desiring this and that. mok ipad lah. mok pergi europe lah. mok hantaran nikah 20k. apa lah! aku pun ada kedak2 ya juak sesungguhnya. manusia. hm. perasaan sik. orang idup susah pun maseh idup bah. kenak aku ada perasaan takut gilak mok idup version ala susah2. takut idup gaji 2 3k jak time dah nikah beranak. benda gia. orang lain gaji 1k pun maseh bernyawa. tp version susah lah. takutnya aku dengan idup susah itu. wuwuu.. uncertainty sungguh! org padah, once berjaya, dont worry about money, tapi, how berjaya baruk jd level berjaya yang d maksudkan itu???

ok next topic. hm sensitive gilak.

ok. next next topic. aa blur. cukup la dolok.

google

2011-05-03T07:40:00.000-07:00

aku bukan artis. tapi aku dah level takut mok google nama dikpun. heheh. jgn pandang enteng okay.

Day 04 - A habit that you wish you didn’t have.

2011-05-03T06:18:00.000-07:00

A ? A lot actually... Maklumlah, manusia biasa. Habit buruk banyak........... Suka gilak polah nyaman, heh.

Habit aku harap yang aku akan hilang pada suatu hari kelak adalah workaholic. Workaholic aku selfish.. Sik suka d kaco. Boleh manas-manas mun ada indah orang tipon. Nyusah aku jak mok agak tipon ya tauk! Haha. Tapi macam dah ok nektok. Dah besar.

Habit buruk lain, berdoa juak lah hilang, suka beguro bodo2, suka nerais, suka bising2. Gitulah. Jangan mencuri sudah la nak.... Nauzubillah.

Day 03 - A picture of you and your friends.

2011-04-27T09:23:00.000-07:00

I have not so many friends. You know real friends. FB frens opkoz more than 500. Real life? 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 tettttttttt. Real friends for me, a person that can hang out with me doing nothing. For now tambi lah.

I have few close friends. Divided into few groups. Friends that I met daily, monthly, yearly or once in a blue moon????? Haha. Abaikan. So far, these are my friends. (kesian jak rupa)

My labmates. Being together rasa-nak-mampus dalam lab, together-gether lunch, together-gether makan cuco pisang and petang2 lepak main volleyball. Weekdays, spent around 10 hours daily with them! Wah!

Thanks Allah SWT for the bond that we had.

My housemates? Yes. They are my frens. Suddenly very sad, as the semester goes, each of us left… Wuhh. Actually. A lot of them, since they come and goes as the sems passed by... Now, am pursuing masters, alocated at different college. Wek. Still, lepak at the old places, living the memories with the remaining. Eh pelik bunyi. *malas ada mok rotate gambar*

My matrix mate. Ini jumpa maybe once a year jak. Cukup lah! Either me or her coming to each other's place. Sabah & Sarawak.

My schoolmates, we had this so gai shortformed name; ESUSHIRA. Hahahah. Erin, Su, Shida n Nora. LOL. The picture was the most recent we met completely in four! Which was during Nora's engagement. The 2nd last was when I was still in matriculation. 4 years ago eh? Meeting them singly is senang, but lepak berempat, totally a bless. Masing-masing dengan haluan sendiri.. Shida: Putrajaya, Nora: KL, Su: Labuan, Erin: London.... Haha.

Eh. Bukan entry entitled A picture of... ka? haha. Nasip lah labu.

Seriously Erin

2011-04-27T08:24:00.000-07:00

Hah. Ada indah orang bingong diat aku serious gilak! Apakahh. Adakah di dahi ku sudah tertulis erin si pelawak or dewi gila????????

Seriously, aku serious orang nya. I was seriously serious from primary school, secondary school until matrix. Huahua. First year degree, still serious, mode matrix still on. Then, from second year getting loose……. Something hit me, what’s the purpose of being so siyes???? Dari sia ku stat sewel. Tapi ku menten hot. Eh. Ahahha. Otak ku menten.

And now, lupak juak how to be serious, it just come naturally okay. Mati la aku time present conference, colloquium ka apa kelak. Mun ku bz polah kerja, menjus la muka aku. Siyes la ya. Aku focus bah. Tapi nang sungguh eh eh eh eh laa, sampe supervisor nanyak labmate, pahal Erin serious gilak dalam lab ? Nya biasa diat character dewi gila ku kali. Tapi, seangol aku tok.. Sik ku angol 24 7. Kelak angol memena lak. Panas perut mak kelak. Haha.

Dah lah. Nang kepak nyawa 2 3 weeks tok rah lab. Tapi… Hahaha. Aku mok tetak jak ehhhhh. Tapi, now aku gik worry diat nya worry ngan aku. Tambah gik ada labmate merik info rah nya yg aku kelaka dengan pokok rah lab????????? Hahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Aku suka gardening ok. Titik.

Saturday Blues

2011-04-09T07:08:00.000-07:00

oh eh oh. my saturdays always sucks eh. me usually being pampered and entertained by my partner without any kompromisi. but my saturdays - is the day.

he'll be buzy with his daughter. wek. wek wekwekwekwekwekwe. ya. no harm actually. just it sucks for me. and me suck too on the third parties pun view. uhhhhh.

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

oh aku still perempuan simpanan. i am not officially introduced to his family tho this is my love story yg since-form-five pun love. ha ha ha. emosi aku. fed up juak nyawa ku.

but now. when he's joking, asking me to greet / meet his parents, i will be. eh. simok. sikmok. sikmokkkkk. ha ha. mati lah. its hard to build the relationship with those yang you kedirik / others built the shields not to be bonded with or known.

salah aku ka. ka ya long term effect my partner yang bermasalah mok introduce aku.

*aku lom layak gik mok di officially introduce. i know. with my appearance, ages difference and so on. conservative parents will ragu-ragu; can we survive the relationshit or not* hiyah!

ah sudah la erin. cerita lama ini actually. it might be me yang telalu being selesa in my comfort zone. not being known by his family. not being watched by his family. being nobody to his family side! alias. im freeeeee. konon.

the moment deciding to meet or not to meet them, the things that will be bothering me is my freedom. freedom's definition is wide okeh. from benda kecik2 to besar2. i lap and hormat my partner and i dont want his family to see him being the wrong person (with me still berpakaian ntah apa2 and perangai pun ikut sendiri punya jiwa raga). so most of the time, i prefer and OK being the unknown... (ala2 ngakuk aku the wrong person la pulak, which am not the wrong person. amin)

wuu. sik tauk mok padah pa gik. it is what it is. lab work aku tengah serabai juak tok. ZzzzzZzzz

Day 02 - The meaning behind your Blog name.

2011-04-03T12:59:00.000-07:00

the random erin!

hoho. it is what it is. :)

random. thats erin. i am impatient. ideas here and there. major problem. there were time, I couldn't cope up and it'll turn into stress as.. I failed to accomplish things. I wish to do many things.

apart from my biology thingy , I wish to learn / do this:

1. pro make up
2. hair cut
3. sewing

I did all of it. make up friends for dinner. cut friends' hair. sewing curtain which end up not being used. Haha. wish to do them with style.. uh. I mean the right way. with the knowledge.

as my partner often said, as we get older, we reflect things and and sometimes end up whining "There were many things that I could have done when I was young..." So do everything. Why not.

besides. i can blog about anything. ah. yesterday, am thinking using this blog to be my research journal as am so lazy on updating my hand written research journal book. uh ah ah. see. its easy when my blog name: random. no blame for randomly updating my blog with non-specific agenda. hiyah!

erin. i like the idea being anonymous. but being transparent (konon) and readers knowing the blogger, we can feel the ketelusan there. (haha). but who cares, as kakak said, what goes here stays here. hehe. it is that simple since my blog is public?? nyeh nyeh nyeh.

ok lah. in conclusion, therandomerin.blogspot.com : my name is erin and i have a lot of random things that i accomplished and wish to accomplish !

Day 01 - A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself.

2011-04-03T03:01:00.000-07:00

Last night picture. Kakak (on the right) and I. At After 3. Totally recent ah!

1 I am anak bongsu and I'm free to do everything. Siblings sangat berfikiran bebas. No kontrol2 or no questions.

2 I have a significant penyek nose which I think people might recognize me from my nose.

3 I have a life partner whom 18 years older than me. He's totally different from me. Yes, he completes me.

4 My hair is thick.

5 I always think that i am good looking though we know that i know i am just that gitu2 level. Oh well. Confidence is the new beauty.

6 My labmates named me Mak Ayam. Until now I don't know why. My master senior named me 'Dewi Gila'. and he's the dewa gila.......

7 I believe I can be successful and happy in my life.

8 Am doing masters in Biotechnology and sponsored by my university, Universiti Malaysia Sarawak. So, everything is free.

9 And during my degree, am under JPA. So everything free again. I have no hutang for my study. I'm proud and happy.

10 I am good in decoration. Home deco. Card deco. Designs. Etc. And I support recycling & reusing.

11 I can play well with adobe photoshop.

12 I have D90. But I'm not so keen on sharing my shot to others. Others just too good.

13 My previous laptop fell from 2nd level building. And opkos, rosak & bye2. Hehe.

14 I never lost my handphone (misplaced salu la).

15 And I never been in any accident (which drove by me). Alhamdulillah.

everything is spontaneous. i try not to read or know the next day challenges. as it would be bias. as i love to brag on everything. hark ptuih! haha

hm.. i think the 15 facts are interesting enuff eh..... we do have different standards huh. haha.

30 days challenges. Hoorah!

2011-04-03T02:31:00.000-07:00

Hi! As an alternative to merri-er my blog. I'll try to complete this 30 days challenges. This was copied and pasted from here. My sister's buddy, Ima! The questions are as follows:

Day 01 - A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself.

Day 02 - The meaning behind your Blog name.

Day 03 - A picture of you and your friends.

Day 04 - A habit that you wish you didn’t have.

Day 05 - A picture of somewhere you’ve been to.

Day 06 - Favorite super hero and why?

Day 07 - A picture of someone/something that has a big impact on you.

Day 08 - Short term goals for this month and why.

Day 09 - Something you’re proud of in the past few days.

Day 10 - Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad.

Day 11 - Another picture of you and your friends.

Day 12 - How you found out about Blog and why you made one.

Day 13 - A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

Day 14 - A picture of you and your family.

Day 15 - Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play.

Day 16 - Another picture of yourself.

Day 17 - Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why?

Day 18 - Plans/dreams/goals you have.

Day 19 - Nicknames you have; why do you have them?

Day 20 - Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future.

Day 21 - A picture of something that makes you happy.

Day 22 - What makes you different from everyone else?

Day 23 - Something you crave for a lot.

Day 24 - A letter to your parents.

Day 25 - What I would find in your bag?

Day 26 - What you think about your friends?

Day 27 - Why are you doing this 30 day challenge?

Day 28 - A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29 - In this past month, what have you learned.

Day 30 - Who are you?

terlebih tahu. suck sometimes.

2011-04-02T08:03:00.000-07:00

tak seronok kadang-kadang if we terlebih makan pucuk penauk @ terlebih tahu.

contoh.

ada kapel.

you knew either the hubby or wifey are cheating... with somebody

ada kapel.

you knew either the hubby or wifey are cheating... with you yourself.

ada kawan.

you knew the kawan talk bullshit @ back stabbing bout you yourself...

but when it comes to your b-day or joy-day. the kawan wishes for the best of the best. irony. why dont simply wish for your death?

but it's not that you couldn't do anything. it's just MALAS.

and the list goes on.

how bout you? any terlebih tahu situation that discomfort you?

Betrayal and Humiliation

2011-03-31T10:42:00.000-07:00

Small matters or simple stuffs can cause betrayal and humiliation. Opkos...

In a cassette store. This was very long time ago. When I was very young. My friend was paying for her cassette then the cashier asked me if I'm interested in any. Dengan asselambabadaknya my so called friend replied:

Dia? Dia tak beli. Dia takda duit.

Terbaek! Might be nothing to you. Plus I was in primary 2 or 4 like that. But to me, it was a big deal. Humiliated gila walaupun memang benar aku sekda duit. Tapi, perlukah?

Next story. I used to be friends with beautiful girlfriends. I don't know how they end up stranded with me. Anyone who knew me tauk lah aku golongan yang tak berupa sangat. So one day, me ttheir family members and as I got back home, one of the family member asked,

Ya la Erin tek? @ Tu la Erin ek? ~~in a geli tone.~~

Pergh. Kinda weird as it was told by my friends themselves, couldn't you guys just simply kept it to you guys ? Heh. Maybe done purposely or maybe we are being transparent. But, uh, my heart. Sob Sob Sob.

Next situation. I was playing kite at the sea with abah. A friend saw us from far. Then, that person commented,

Hey! You look beautiful from far.

Hahahaa. Ok. In a short range @ depan biji mata kepala I am fucking ugly la. Hahaha.

But hell. I can laugh on those things now. I've been meaner and worse, even now still. How i wish to stop as i do know little things do affects major things. But as the environment are full with those weird energy I have to buffer everything.. True -ve should be with +ve energy.. But sometimes it doesn't work that way... -ve should be with -ve..... ukik (ukik = u know i know, hahaha)

And. Everything now seems like revenge. Fb-ing and Twitter-ing on things that shouldn't be public. I don't know when @ how to stop as things simply happen. To remove the post or comments, I have that certain ego not to do so.

Less status update and less useless comment might be a good start ?? Why not.

Sharing Thoughts

2011-03-09T10:17:00.000-08:00

I've been busy and much were learn from life. A lot to share :

Real partner and real friend can hang out doing nothing
If we flirt, it shows that there is no chemistry between any of two parties, so stop trying is the best option. But stopping from being so allured ain't easy. ~~And so am I. Wargh.~~
Learn to stop talking bout the things that you wish to stop doing @ thinking. Then you'll stop!
Being easy is not cheap. I'm pretty easy actually, but to certain ppl. Those appreciate my easy-ness.
Appreciate the little things. Will be easier to happy. Be simple. See, its easy to be easy.

Wanna hear your thoughts and responses too! Feel free to comment! :)

My February

2011-03-09T10:13:00.000-08:00

Oh ya. I want to document everything. So, summarizing my february, I wish to upload my top 5 moments of my fabulous Feb! (Fabulous kerrrrr)

No 1. My besties & my supportive tambi hanging out at Damai Beach. Its good to have them all at the same time!

No 2. Tambi was out of town, and gave me those free food tickets.We end up having main course at Riverside Majestic and dessert at Magherita in one night. Hahah. Nice.

No 3. Mak & Abah's 31st Anniversarry! Was celebrated at Oasis Cafe, with close family and friends. Like. :)

No 4. Being in the lab. It was a torture but I am blessed to be around those ppl. Stressing and enjoying while completing my masters, is a blessed!

No 5. Launching me & my labmates new project. Sell & Swap project in UNIMAS. LOL. Sounds serious huh. XD Feel free to go to Sell & Swap !

I think this should be it. Am looking forward for March! Hope for the best memories. Oh ya. Do start living.

DIY: Play with your photo frames, er, again!

2011-02-09T07:41:00.000-08:00

Hi! Mentioned my staircase frame project, but oyeah, turned into something else lah.

Here it goes.

The empty space. Took using my hp. Bit blur-ish.

On the way mode. Gather your desired photo + frames. Organize !

Done. I like this idea. Mixing the photo frames with mirrors. Can you see me on the right mirror?

Am in the photo arrangement now. Hehe. So can you. Just stand there! And at night, in reflects the light from the standing lamp. Nice.

Never say never to thrift store @ locally named: KEDAI DUA RINGGIT in Sarawak, Malaysia.

This only cost me RM16.50 (Frames + The clock). Gaga. This idea mixing the frames with something ticking @ alive is nice too. I like this one very much too! The result ( on the staircase wall not captured yet), this was taken during organizing it on my floor, later!

Oh. I nailed it all. Proud. Gaggaga. Ok, til then. Til my next project! Huhu.

Life Partner for Real

2011-02-05T10:22:00.000-08:00

Salam sejahtera. This post is not meant to show off or brag on my love life. Just love to share. Eh, bukan ko salu padah sharing is boring ka erin????? Nasiplah.

Yes. Bershukur (as he typed, lol) is the key of everything. I am so afraid that I am / was (should be ok if it WAS) / will be not content-ed with my life. Scary ha. Wanted more though u had everything you've wanted (ala2 gtu lah). He texted this as I used to msg him: Syg! Im bored. Syg! I feel empty. Syg! Bla3. Still, after this msg, I'm sure I'll text him the same thing over and over again. Haha.

And yes! WTF with buaya @ con man. I've been with many. Hahah. If i look back. Oh bodohnya aku melayan such people. But, sungguh seronok. Tidak dapat dinafikan. Sungguh mengkhayalkan. You can see how people selling themselves and as you ~~pretending~~ buying , they'll give more more more more fantasies and stories. Haha. Layannnnnnnn. Then, you can see how high and low a human can be. Thank YOU for being REAL......................

Ok. I think that's it for now. Back to my staircase frame project.

DIY: Retouch The Old Frames

2011-02-04T08:29:00.000-08:00

DIY :

Do it yourself. Heh! This project took longer than i thought as i was bz. ok. bz bah. So let the picture speaks...


Rumah ku banyak frame with old pictures. So not synchronized to be hanged together. So, spray them all black. Spraying tips: Make sure the day is sunny!

But firstly, clean the potent area. So many lizards' shit huh.


Then, organize your photo frame onto a paper, then draw them up, be particular on the hook area !

Then, attach the paper onto the wall. Nail the wall accordingly to what had been marked. (DIY konon, DIT seharusnya, do it together with those yang sanggup! haha)

Nail them ! I only did 2 of them. Scary. Ain't easy to nail concrete wall. Once all nailed. Rip off the paper! Use news paper instead of kertas kajang or what so ever. DIY should be with 3R : Reduce, Recycle & Reuse okeh!

Tada! Dah siap gantong. Cemtok la amature DIY pun hasil. Rindok ati bah dari barang2 tok berdebu or retak seribu dalam kotak2 yang diangkut dari Mukah few years ago. Huuu.

Close up mode. Hm. Can see the young me, my sibs & my parents. And also gambar senget2 and no photo-ed frame. Haha. New old photos not selected yet. Sabar. Bz bah.

Next project: Staircase Frames. Inspired by many, but the most from here.

And of course, my room ler. Must pictures are:

Me 10 years ago. Few days ago actually. Haha.

And opkoz my beloved hero. He hate this picture since his nose hole so big eh? It is what it is ler !!!

My aims were to do DIY proper-er! But i'm sure proper-er will take longer! :|

Hormonal Changes - Informal

2011-01-18T11:29:00.000-08:00

Hormonal changes comes with pros and cons. As a woman, am loving it (boleh???? hhaha) as it diverse my persona & physical in many ways. My partner enjoys it. I can't explain exact how but it does made him treasure me more. Uh.. I love being treasured. Being appreciated and dikasihi indirectly. Him? Hormonal changes.. Ummm. Nothing much. All I can share is that, as man get sexier cum older, they become sensitive-er and manja-er. Or is it me lazy to explore him?

Talking bout hormonal changes, batin activity does affect it. Doesn't have to be physical-batin activity oh anyway! A friend whom used to have menstrual once in a blue moon (once per 3 months act. heheh) got her period on track after layan blue continuously for few months. The moment the friend stopped layan blue due to limited supply, the menstrual cycle become distracted. LOL? Fact. LOL. Then, a friend being kenja or buaya betina faced the same thing. Gaggaaga. The moral of the story is, get a partner and get laid ! JK.

And oh, am so into being friend with those with stabilized hormone. Dealing with those unstable homoners destabilize mine too, as i tend to terkena tempias once a person bawa perangai or muka, eh you know i know la. Same goes to mood swinnngerrr. Contagious! Wargh. As usual, I'll make dono. Don't wanna waste my precious time and energy on something dim witted (New year resolution which was already implemented long ago. Haha. Im a good ignorer.). Deep in my throat, hoping to spill those words; Get a gerek (again) !!! As unstable homoners usually are the singlers. Hehh. No comment which already being commented. Ok. Sekian.

p/s: maturity is subjective. how mature is matured? :]

R & D

2011-01-11T06:14:00.000-08:00

This post is dedicated to those yang mengambil bidang R&D. I was googling for enzyme assay basic guide and found this guide which include kata-kata semangat yang ala2 serious tp wow! sungguh bermakna untuk orang2 R&D.

Layannnnnn.

I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain. (or an alternative ending… only the data will remain)

it was from here.

K, in the lab now. Clock; 2200. Hu.. It is what it is. Enjoy.

orang ninggal

2010-12-18T04:22:00.000-08:00

byk keluarga terdekat ninggal but bukan 1st degree lah. i did not went to any of it. i cant help it. mesti ku nangis mun diat orang lain nangis. ko ada??? sik tahan ku. bukan ku malu nangis. sik ku malu. tambah gik malas. ketulahan abis. dah sik pergi rasa bersalah.

part paling dramatic time orang engkah mayat dalam kubur / tanah or apa2 ktk orang tunggah. anak laki2 akan nyambut rah debah ya.. rapat sik rapat dengan yg meninggal. berderei juaklah aek mata. time ya ada la anak2 or si suami / isteri seolah olah simok 'melepas' orang ninggal... sob3. bergenang indah aek mata ngenang senario itu.

sik tauk lah apa mok d padah juak tok. tekedu kedirik sik pergi ngabas hormat terakhir kepada yang meninggal. tang ada turn kedirik sekda orang pergi. nauzubillah.

bak my partner owes said, jgn d sedeh gilak pemergian seseorang ya. mayb ya suatu kejayaan untuk dirinya. wallahualam. al fatihah untuk wa, mak nek, pak nek. nek yong, nek ud, su on, & bang wel.

home

2010-12-08T08:31:00.000-08:00

my room in unimas became a run away port for me. when i'm home. there will be so much things to be done. from simply mengemas-ing to being kak kayah n abang mos businesses personal assistance. being dragged into things or matters that should be or should not be meddled. which i loveeee to, when my mind at ease lah. but when my lab work is at peak. o no no no. it would be study + business + pleasure. they mix wrongly. end up at the wrong turn lah oh. i hardly focus. my lab bench and room at home will mengarei! it ain't easy to do everything but i do wish to do everything. i am greedy.

one of my bestfriend, her asrama become her heaven as she have no proper room at home. hurm. i believe everybody ada their own issue and blues...

its easy to run away, but usually i don't really kempang ati to do so. though am at college, my heart is at home. thinking bout the langsir, rumput, the kitchen, dpt catch up ka dak mak with the customers today, etc. how bout you? feel so freaking happy gila babi away from home ? happy being less emotionally involved with home-based drama ? uhuhu. i love being both, away and at home. :)

the shield

2010-12-06T18:00:00.000-08:00

Blog untuk bulan ini adalah (bulan ye. bukan hari. jimat tenaga. haha) mengenai automatic generated love shield @ staying as friend only pls Mode.

Macam tok benda tok. Kita dah bergerek and apabila sampai satu tahap itu. Tahap sedar diri I named it. Kita akan ngeluar aura yg menunjukkan aku dah bergerek, boh fall in love with me. Bunyi cam perasan yarabbi. Tapi bukan perasan tok. Perkara serius tok. Ini benda automatically generated once dah fall in lap memena ngan some1, dah rasa secure ngan partner tek, maka wujudlah aura atau tindakan reflex tok tek. Mode bertaboh, kelaka kasar, kelaka ala2 semberono were officially on with the opposite gender pun friends. Purpose: sak kawan2 rasa kawan. Sekda the wrong turn pun ‘intimacy’.

In my opinion, aura tok bagus. Kawan rasa selesa, kita selesa, No emotional or sexual tension. (yerdeh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Susah tok aih mun ada. Wakakaka. Ok next2 pun post lah. Lolol.) Cuma menjadi tak menjadi apabila terlalu fake, rasa gai ada juak aie… Especially jenis nak gago nyebut2 kita teman tapi mesra nak??? Sikkan mok fall in love with you?? (IN PUBLIC, LOUDLY DENGAN BANGGA NYEW) GAI GAI GAI. Wuwuwuwuwuhhh. Action speaks louder words bah. When word speaks louder than everything, ya gai la bah.

Kawen

2010-11-15T09:40:00.000-08:00

Kawen woo.
Sik tauk gne mok start ready kawen. The only thing yg ku fikir adalah, mesti byk saudara mara dijemput oleh parents kita. Ntah sapa-sapa, mostly kita sik kenal pun. Modal kita mayb kecik, tp niat nak kawen memang ada. Berkemungkinan besar niat kawen tebantut ngenang brapa 'perah' mok d spent pake warga koarga ajak. Bukan nak bekira, tp ngenang duit yang mengalir ngalir itu.

Maybe boleh padah ngan parents " Kitak invite nak lebih2 ya, ktk spon boleh? Kmk spent rah kawan2 and 1st degree pun family jak". Boleh kah? Kadang2 orang2 tua over juak merapu-rapu juak list nak d invite. Tedah niat suci anak mok kawen tegugat d tengah jalan.

Aku penah join sikit2 kawan ku yg nikah pun diskasen. Accident terjoin. Yarabi yarasul. Pihak nun madah mok sekali gago. Pihak tok mok duak belah gago. Dah sama2 gago, dak 'seperah' pande berat sebelah lah. Eish eish eishh. Tapi majlis terlaksana juak lah.

Niat utama mok sebarkan khabar berita orang dah berkahwen jak. Kenak ada makan2 oh ? Sedekah kah. SIk tauk juak aku. Kurang membaca bab tok. Next time, mayb cukup, akad nikah, photo session then informing session via email, fb, etc2. Hm. Majlis kawen polah ala2 bbq pun best juak. Makan stimboat kah. Hahaha. Nang raget.

Ok lah. Saja tetiba kelaka hal tok since aku nang sekda saving mok kawen pun. Tp mok kawen.Wahaha.

Rindu Mukah. Sikit.

2010-11-14T09:32:00.000-08:00

Aku baruk perasan.
Time kat Mukah dahulu kala.
Dengan selamba badak nya, aku akan dongak langit.. Diat helang! Eagle bah.
Then, on the way Balingian - Mukah or the other way around.. Ada nemu hornbill terbang lalu nyeberang jeraya.

Hahaha. Aku berani taroh ktk orang sekda diat hornbill terbang. Palak nya berat koh! Haha. Nak dalam zoo, sangkar ya neda terbang. Sian diat sidak. Mun mok diat Hornbill terbang, sila lah google. Haha. Nang raget.

Helang. Buk tadik ku diat time g Lundu, make jalan belakang nak still berferry ya. Tetiba rindu Mukah. Kat Kuching, nang sekda ku nemu Si Eagle. O tedah.

Erin Loya Hal Scandal

2010-11-14T09:26:00.000-08:00

Scandal. Its an amusement.

Scandal on call.
Ini scandal banyak senang. Very the casual. Sekda nak bermsg, bercall. Beloya sikit nanyak khabar ada kot. Tup tup, nanyak free sik ? Jom kelua. Yere. Booty call ker.

Scandal pengganti gerek.
Gerek tek bz gilak. Msg sik. Call pun before tdo just to say good nite. Makanya, scandal pengganti gerek ini lah yang akan melaksanakan tanggungjawab basic seorang gerek. Tanya khabar. Dah makan lom. Assignments. Even schedule exam si scandal plak hapal, bf/gf memang bz @ ignorant gilak. Nang wujud tok.

Scandal one nite stand.
Ala tok for sex jak kot. Common. Boring.

Scandal thrill-ing.
Guilty pleasure. Salu belaku dlm satu organization. Scandal dekat2. Woho! Scandal jaoh-jaoh mana ada thrill. Too safe. Best thrill. Rasa hebat. Boleh flirt kuat kuat. Best macam.

Scandal for self-variation.
Boring with routine activity ngan partner. So nak test - what will am i doing if im in a relationship with other guy. Would it be best-er or boring-er. So more or less mcm test market. Eh no. This one more to 'test power'.

Scandal time ada prob in relationship / Test Market
Ha. Time tengah ada prob ngan partner, time ya la gatal check out manusia di luar sana. Test market awal, still viable kah diri di pasaran. So end up pasang scandal @ back up though tiada niat nak pasang lain. Just nak buang masa dari bersedeh @ testing2. Tapi buang masa ngan kaum sejenis tak se-passion klua ngan kaum tak sejenis. Excitement nya lain. Tak gitu. Huahua.

Tapi yalah. Life's short. Get a scandal !

hole-phobic

2010-10-12T02:25:00.000-07:00

Banyak cerita. Tapi malas la mok cerita hal raya hal konvo. Semuanya berjalan dengan lancar dan saya gembira.

Pada hari yang barakah ini. Saya mok cerita tentang trypaphobia. Takut ngan lubang. Aku sik la phobia ney. Tapi lubang yang pepelik boleh polah ku ngerijik. Geli geleman. Kalah geli mat mat mat..

Lubang rah kapas muka aku. Ewwwwwwwwwww. Waaaaa.

Sos yang dah fermented rah kafe kolej. Ewwwwww. ISh. wawawa

Sik suka! Sik suka. Dislike. Hm. Geliklah. Semua mula time form brapa ntah terdiat gambar nenen yang diedit oleh sapa ntah. Ada banyak lubang rah nipple then ada ulat dlm lubang ya. Aku rasa most ppl seen the picture. BODO eh. Ada jumpa rah facebook. Tapi sik rela mok korek link gambar ya. Haha. Ada nangis kegelikkan. Ok lah. Yajak lok.

Kesian la mana2 empuan dapat suami hole-phobic? Wakahkhakhakha.

tikus oh tikus

2010-09-21T04:01:00.000-07:00

Rumah aku kena serang tikus. Malu sebenarnya nak ngaku rumah kena serang tikus. Boleh dibayangkan rumah aku macam sarang tikus oleh orang lain. Haha. Cis.

Barang aku yg dah dikondem tikus ada dua. Pelapik kaki & cadar bukan kesayangan aku. Phew. Babi ko tikus! O. Tikus and babi pun dah tak kenal. Sian kedua dua pihak.

Ada banyak cara nak kasi halau tikus. Banyak ka. Tak la juge. Racun. Perangkap. Gam tikus. Nak guna racun, takut dia mati merempat and rumah berbau tanpa tahu punca bau. Perangkap, kawan aku kata takyah guna cheese, guna belacan je. Tikus local. Kah3. The best guna gam tikus je lah.

RM2 je. lawak jak rupa tikus ya. berbaju indah. so far yang down semua bogel. wakaka

2 hari dah aku guna gam tikus. 3 ekor down. and sekor lepas. Aku dah agak dia dpt gigit kertas gam tu.


sbenarnya dpt induk tikus. besar! tapi mak x berani mok ambik, so terlepas la si tikus itu sebab time tu jam 4 pagi. semua tdo. hehe

Hu. Bencik la ngan tikus. Dah la dengan ancaman penyakit nya gik. K lah. Till then.

Siapa yang kesian ?

2010-09-16T16:22:00.000-07:00

Ada sorang duda. Dia bergerek baru. Duda ada anak. Anak dia still sekolah rendah. Since duda ada gerek baru, kawan-kawan anak si duda tertengok la si duda bersama gereknya dalam version mesra (standard orang dating lah). Budak-budak sungguhlah budak-budak. Ngeluar statement kepada si anak duda:

Bapak ktk keluar ngan empuan lain instead of your mom, sik mok kawan ktk!

Persoalannya. Siapa yang kesian? Macam 3-3 pihak yg kesian. Alahai.

Lokek

2010-09-01T15:17:00.000-07:00

Benar lokek dan diriku tidak dapat dipisahkan. Terutamanya barang2 mahal dan barang2 peribadi (sik kira murah ka mahal mun tok). Ee. Pantang. Tapi lately, kongsi jak lah. Tapi lokek ya pande datang balit. Salu nya ku lokek antap. Wahaha. Sak orang ya tauk ku sikmok berik or entertain. Tapi ada juak sik faham2 keantapan ya tek, agik juak. Ah, aok lah. Selagi bukan pinjam sloa dalam, berik lah!

Geram ku tok. Adala benda ku dipake. Bukan dipinjam since aku engkah benda ya sia. Tapi, ya barang aku, boh la pake! Ish ish. Lokek abis (mun sikmok dipake, boh la engkah sia! tp engkah juak.. ahhh). Wawawa. MUN PAKE BARANG AKU AND BENDA YA SIK RUSAK SIK LA KESAH BAH. TOK PAKE SAMPE AKU RASA SIMOK PAKE GIK BENDA YA. Situasi ini bikin aku makin lokek. Sob sob sob... Aku pake sik jadi kedak ya. Tok orang lain yg gago make merusakkannya. Sedih sik sedih.

Sik salah lokek kot. Demi kepentingan diri. Macam hal di atas, rosak sebab orang lain, mana puas hati bebbb. Rasa mok sumpah2. Kalau sendiri rosakkan, nak marah pun tak jadi. Selamba donno buang n beli baru. Huaehua. Ok lah. Selamat hari Khamis! :D

mengandung !

2010-08-31T15:16:00.000-07:00

Badzlin & Alisya. Badzlin dah mcm besar gilak2!! Sak jak baruk 2 tahun. Hehehh.

Gik kenak enjen ngan ninek sidak.. Haehahaeh

Kiut nak miak kecik ? My anak buahs act. Ada juak terfikir. Kiut kah anak ku kelak?? Mun sik kiut, sayang kah aku ngan sidak?? Gila la punya soalannnnn. Physicalistic sungguh. HohOHOHo. Tapi itu kebenarannya. Salu miak kecik nak kiut lah jd favorite. Nak sikda rezeki gilak nak kiut, 2 3 nyawa nak ngagak. Tak gitu.

Dalam melanjut usia sebegini, salu la berangan. Berangan apa lagi. Berangan pregnant lah. Berangan beranak sikda. Takut nak berangan part ya. Berangan cuci berak anak or bangun awal pagi anak mintak susu pun sekda juak. Apatah lagi berangan sakit belakang and pinggang, pundi kencing salu penoh or sikpat tdo nerap or telentang... Fantasy nak best2 jak di layan. Tapi angan-angan ya salu jak macam benar. Cekdisout.

Left photo (my fb pic) is adobed lah. Sungguh lawak. Wahaha. Alu keluar rumours mena kah aku dah nikah since aku nang suka bulak orang aku dah nikah and beranak 2. Saja. Gikpun the best way malas nak melayan " Leh kenal? ". Right picture. Sik adobed. Tang bulat jak perut ya oh. Haha. Took at tambi's opis. Mostly, time lepas makan ngan tambi, malas nak ngempis perut time bejalan, makanya, aku pretend jak lah jd pregger and seorang wifey. Senang. Tambah gik ngan rambut nang rupa unsak ansey. Heahaha.

Ok lah. Cukup lah meroyan lekak sahur. Babai! Mok g lab abas fungi ritok.

murah rejeki

2010-08-25T06:15:00.000-07:00

Tepat jam 6.28 pm. Beberapa minit lagi mahu sungke untuk kawasan Kuching dan yang sewaktu dengannya. Nokia brick ku berbunyi dan lalu di saut.

SV: Assalamualaikum Erin. Sine kitak? Rah suro kah?

Erinulat: Waalaikumussalam. Aok. Suro.

Lepas ya duak2 tetak ngan sinis. Hahaha. Sabar jak kuuu. Kuat ngatik eh. ~.~ The call was from my SV (supervisor daa) mok padah ada sorang Dr mintak tolong (tapi aku rasa the exact word is 'suruh' since sikkan dapat nak nulak, ko sapa wahai erin nak nulak lecturer soh molah keja??? haha) extract DNA and pcr bla bla bla and penting sekali aku dah dpt scholar. Ah AH AH ah ahahahaha. Happy eh.

Nama scholar ya UNIMAS Zamalah VC (Vice Chancellor). Out of 25 nominations, 3 dapat. Bangga ku (sikit jak 25 ya. bukan 1000, eh tetap ku bangga. Hahhaa). Scholar tok lecturer @ SV nominate anak-anaknya.. Then will be selected lah by the senates. And paling best, aku sik perlu interview. Wahahahaha. UNIMAS Zamalah have to interview actually. Just Zamalah VC tok nya macam hadiah la konon (hadiah dr VC @ TNC lah kali kepada students UNIMAS yang further master lah) So, sapa dapat sik perlu la interview nak. Mok berik hadiah pun berinteview?? Hevvat. Haha.

Aku sangat la sik pernah berinterview. OMG. Kesian nya aku. Sekda pengalaman. ZERO. Sikpalah. Akan ku pupuk perkara interview2 tok. Just nak share satu perkara lagi. Ada ku terdengar suara sinis berbunyi begini. Simok la padah sapa nak.

Senang nya idup ko.

Lurus nya idup ko. Boring.

Alah, ko senang. Tengok aku ni perlu blah blah blah ala2 lagu Kesha.

Erinulat faham maksud sidak. Kitak orang faham? Faham kot. Dah besar. Tapi dalam hati ku. Eh, kamon lah. Rezeki kot. And for sure, itu adalah rentetan usaha masing-masing. Tak gitu. Nothing comes for free. Worth every titik of my sweats kotttttt. Haha. Ngegeh rupa ku kelaka. Udah lah. Mok happy lok thou tengah sik berdu. Tambi balit dari kl ritok. Yayyyyyy.

delete / filter / remove

2010-08-22T12:15:00.000-07:00

Biasa je perkara ni kat fs, ym, gtalk, msn and opkos fb. Huahuahua.

Mesti banyak persoalan apabila diri kita if was deleted / filtered / removed.

kenapa kenapa kenapa

Yang memang tak kenal tak kesah, yang kenal and maybe berjumpa 2 3 4 5 6 or 7 kali seminggu mesti rasa-rasa nak tanya jer depan muka kan kan kan?

Kemungkinan jawapan-jawapan orang itu adalah begini:

saya benci awak
awak stalk saya kan
awak tak penting ( tak penting? kenapa delete. ha! penting la tu! wahaha)
saya prefer kenal reality ngan awak rather than follow social networks or messenger ntah pepe tu lah.
benda tu untuk keluarga saya shj.
benda tu untuk orang yg layak sahaja. (aku rasa nak sepak laju2)
malu la awak tengok gambar2 / kehidupan saya. saya ni manchal sikit. (yeww)
saya nak awak jumpa saya selalu. tak nak connect tru such things la. (romentik la tek! wawawa. best)

Sesungguhnya. Takda papa pun. Tak berkontek dlm social networks @ messenger takda la putus silaturahim pun. Takda la terus isytihar perang. Haha. Macam haram.

Sesungguhnya lagi. Just that. Zaman dah berubah. FS FB YM MSN semua dah jadi lumrah and satu keperluan. Erinulat sendiri jarang guna SMS. Salu SMS ni jerrr.

Oi. Bukak YM lok! Oi. GTalk lok!

Or kadang2.

Oi! Apasal sik on YM / GTalk ?

Dah on messenger baru nak tanya ' Apa khabar? ' Hahah.

Ok. Yajaklah. Last month ku buk filter fb ku. Dari 900 lebih ku filter jd 600 lebih ka 700 lebih. Sikpat delete agik sebab semua nang kenalan, Yodeh. Banyak juak kenalan aku dlm hati ku. Hahhaa. Kawan sekolah, classmates, coursemates, senior, junior, kawan kepada kawan yg kenal aku tp aku sik kenal sidak, aunt, pakcik, cousin, 2nd cousin, 3rd cousin, anak buah, anak tiri (ehh, haha) macam2. Semua ada! Best juak actually. My fb / fs sekda sensor2. Huahua. Salu juak kenak tegor. Ah. FB FS je pown.

Ah. Kalau BLOCK tu lain ceritalah. So far, sekda sapa pun aku block. Sekdala gai gilak.

Beruang during Global Warming

2010-08-20T01:03:00.000-07:00

Ya. Would be useless as we only speak rather than doing. So now, let me share the drawing & painting rather than cakap kosong aje (so aku sik telibat ngan orang yg cakap kosong la, haha).

A postcard actually. International Children's Painting Competetion by Catherin Nishchuk [12], Russia.

2007 Second Global Winner.

Of all the ideas to illustrate so called global warming, i found this the coolest. Mueheh!

Beruang kutub bukak kulitnya pake bikini untuk mandik!

If i were the artirst (lalu artist), the end product might be stereotype... A picture of kebakaran, toyol haus sekda aek, ada thermometer at boiling point. Biasa-biasa jak. Tapi beruang kutub tok juak raget.

Ultimate Pleasure

2010-08-19T12:56:00.000-07:00

In Ramadhan, I kept my cotton buds stock : zero. I only get them from my mak (at home) or friends ( in college). It is among my biggest challenge not to please myself with cotton buds during the day.

To my surprise (cewah), i found this !

The moment I pleasure-ly digging the 'mines', I felt funny, saying to myself:

"Kontot ka apa cotton bud tok, tapi nyaman eh."

And continue pleasuring... Without looking at it.

The moment rechecking how precious was the mines digged (regarding to the cotton buds' post-colour) Aaaahhh. I realized how special were the cotton buds. Wakaka.

Menarik ! ! ! Critically examining the shape, texture etc. recalling myself on condoms type. Fully ribbed? Textured? Coloured? Hahaha. Now i know most people agreed cotton buds were among the ultimate pleasure in life. Looking forward for more types of cotton buds!

Oh ya. These buds were bought by mak & abah from Japan shop in Matang, a new shop! New shophouses simply next to E-mart. RM4.90 per barrel. Barrel? I wish! Haha.

Work Things Out (WTO)

2010-08-19T04:54:00.001-07:00

Mari bercakap mengenai jodoh @ cinta. According to erinulat's point of view, love + saling menyukai are among the crucial elements in a relationship. Oh semestinya. Tak suka, maka tak cinta, tak cinta, maka tak gerek.

Tapi, macam dah sik.

Boleh sik ku padah, zaman nektok sik kedak gya gik. Yang penting, kita work things out! Once kita work things out, gerenti jalan punya! Cinta ya. Telalu tinggi untuk di gapai di kala ini. 'Selesa bersama' mungkin antara term sebenar untuk melabel sesuatu perhubungan itu. Namun, demi menjaga standard perhubungan, saying "ailebiu" semestinya wajib. And, saying "babai" time hanging up the phone after bergayut is taboo. Huahaha.

Secara logiknya, mun mok cinta kepada yang satu selamanya (manusia, bukan yang Maha Esa) macam sangat lah payah payah payah gilak gilak gilak lah. Maka, wujud nya flirt, poligami dan my fantasy boyfriend / husband. Nak merasa yang lain-lain. Nak variasi. Nak refresh. Nak retreatment. Nak size lain (eh? haha). Nak macam2 lah! Janji lain rasa. I loike (opsssss). Bulak ktk orang sik. Sapa sik pernah main kayu tiga empat limak nang tahniah lah!

I used to ngerepak

BORING EHHHH

(regarding to my relationship lah). Bak kata tambi, you are facing marriage syndrom. Tapi kita lom kawen pun tambi? Its true. It was due to doing routine activities for so many years (macam dah begerek 1o tahun, haha). Reality nya mek duak buk 4 - 5 tahun. Hm. Tapi kadang-kadang perasaan boring memang tidak dpt dibendung! Tapi, dengan kaedah alternative, dapat juga dibendung. Syukur gituu. Apa kaedah alternative?? Biarlah menjadi rahsia keindahan perhubungan kami.

Mudah untuk berkata-kata: pergi la buat activity, pergila honeymoon kepada pasangan. Sekali lagi, zaman ini, segala-galanya memerlukan masa dan uwang. Ada orang berdu dan masa, macam mana yang tidak ada? Biarkan diri dilanda boring? Oh tidak. Maka, di situ harus wujud sifat bersyukur. (Sik best part tok, cut terus lah). Berbicara tentang masa, apakata anda baca entry ini. Sungguh syahdu.

Jadi, WTO antara element terkuat dalam perhubungan bagi erinulat. Even orang yang almost bercerei berei mun nya WTO gerenti berjaya. Apatah lagi kita yang lagi di ambang awal-awal, lagi setahun jagung and jenis yang susah nak bergerek baru. Apakata mulakan dengan WTO ! (macam orang MLM jak aku). Hargai partner yang sedia ada dan WTO!

HHdehaha.

" WTO! "

Macam best. XD

Pelik Sikit

2010-08-19T02:08:00.000-07:00

Perkara Pelik 1

Bukan hantu. Ini berkenaan satu lokasi tempat makan baru di Kuching, Sarawak. Yakni Kubah Ria baru! Ya, baru, yang tepi sungai abis. Huhu. Semua sedia maklum Kubah Ria halal and senang lenang hati nak makan. Tapi ini bikin first timer berfikir balik, halal ke tak nih? Huhu.

Tulisan rumi, check! Tulisan cina, check! Tulisan jepon (jepon ke tu?), check! Tulisan jawi, eh sekda/nadai/nebei/ tiada. Sekilas pandang.. Macam tidak halal. Hoho.

Perkara Pelik 2

Aku bukan orang tere IT. So just pelik lately sebab after close browser FB (tanpa log out), if ku re-open browser, kadang-kadang (so far 3 4 kali) profile orang lain keluar, yang logged-in punyee.. Bukan sekadar profile okayh. View this :

Teringin try update status orang tu yg bodoh2. Tapi, malas lah. Heheh. Just wondering this happened due to what oh. And, kadang2 email orang mana ntah suddenly kat box log in untuk FB. Huhu. Macam that day, orang Johor Baru... Macam-macam ada. Erm. Pelik juak kenak aku tag post tok dlm 'Funny'. Hehehhh.

dah climax, lepas tu ?

2010-08-07T02:48:00.000-07:00

Sebenarnya aku ada post lain yg lebih hangat tp ngenang takut orang berkaitan baca ( erin penakut wuh & perasan org baca ), biar issue itu reda dulu baru post.

Ada satu malam, terbaca satu isu, dahsyat! Isu cepat boring agak menakutkan, walaupun bunyinya tak lah sehebat mana. Tapi scary wo. Tapi saya ada satu lagi isu yg scary-er. Ini macam:

Ada sorang empuan tok, nya kawen, then nya lost. Sik tauk APA gik lepas kawen. Nang ada?

ADA!

Pada pendapat erinulat, benda ini berlaku apabila kita meletakkan sesuatu sebagai climax kehidupan. Kebanyakan orang mungkin letak abis SPM, abis degree, dah beli rumah or kereta sebagai satu climax atau point tertinggi dalam kehidupan. Lepas dapat, blur tak tahu nak buat apa lagi. PLAN dah sampai ending la katakan or mission accomplished.

Sesungguhnya, saya pun begitu, paling ketara time beli DSLR. Time belom ada bukan main lagi main orang punya, terngigo ngigo memiliki. Once dapat, sik juak gne2. Lamak dah sik bermain. Ah. Jgn dikenang.

Paling ditakuti, syndrome cepat boring + lost-after-climax-achieved bergabung. Tetiba ter-imagine.. Time ilek-ilek polah master, then boring since this road is lonely woo.. Kawan nang kurang berbanding time degree dowh. Sik tauk pa nak d polah, lalu rasa mok nikah. Ha. Takut. Sebab rasa kawen didorong oleh rasa boring dan bukannya rasa aku nang mok kawen. Or harus / etc2 kawen. Hm. Nauzubillah.

Jadi, memang molek meletakkan sesuatu point untuk d achieve tapi jgn lupa dengan perjalanan yg terkemudian. Bak kata pepatah, marriage is not the final stage of a relationship but it is a new beginning..

for another few years

2010-08-03T23:48:00.000-07:00

Updating this entry at Molecular Genetics Lab.. My port for another few years. Hope two years is the max.
Ini meja. Masih suci lagi. Baru main2.. Being an illegal RA, macam ni lah. Sekda keja. Offer letter master pun haven't received. But given the opportunity by my SV to main-main in the lab lah. Now datang-datang, sembang-sembang, lepak-lepak, kokay-kokay, gitu-gitulah. Huhu. Nang ada, adala! Sambil-sambil start my project juak lah. Hm. Masih peringkat screening my fungi yang mampu makan lignin and pectin. Nothing much. Tapi at least ada la woh.

Ini gambar lab as a whole. Whole la sgt. Panjang gik kebelakang nun. Cita-cita nak ngemas lab ni. Proper sikit. Biasalah. Labmates 90% laki. Aku la harapan. *perasan*. Sak jak aku 2 kali 5. Alahai.

K la. Tetiba ku pilu. Kekeke. Siyes mode indah ari tok. Salah2. Focus mode. Bagus!

couple - lOve - meter

2010-08-02T11:15:00.001-07:00

ku suka observe orang...
benda bodo2 jak..
selain dr cara sidak berfikir and kelaka...
ada sigek habit aku tok.
aku suka judge orang pun relationship.
wahahaha

bukan level bahagia ka sik
level ke-lust-an nya.
level keghairahan.
senang jak ku diat ya.
sekdalah nilit sampe ke katel, apa kah???

contoh termudah

Kimora and new hubby & Kim + Reggie (now org lain dah)

VS

Giuliana & Bill.

Dalam skala kenja erin. juara ghairah can either be Kimora @ Kim.
And yang tegar kalah is Giuliana & Bill. Hahaha.

Kitak orang ada berfikir kedak tok??

orang berjawatan

2010-08-02T10:50:00.000-07:00

Lately, aku active join activity2. Happy. And benda utama aku observe adalah anggota organisasinya. Sedikit jenis manusia berjawatan has been found as below. Keh3.

1. Orang yang rasa bagus.

Asyik kutuk orang lain je. Sedangkan aku kenal 'orang lain' tu and 'orang lain' tu tak ambik port pun pasal diri mereka. So diorang sangat rasa bagus tapi tidak di lalek oleh orang lain. Agak bangang la rupa. Kesian dowh. Boleh dikatogerikan sebagai syok sendiri.

2. Orang just having fun.

Memang best dilayan cuma kadang-kadang memang fun sgt sampai tak buat kerja.

3. Orang so into it.

Ni satu masalah. Boleh dikatakan dia akan bercerita secara details kisah2 so called sebenar yg berlaku kepada orang-orang bawahan version tak habis-habis (hari ni, esok lusa tulat sentiasa adaaa lah!). Aku rimas orang camtok sebab mun aku tauk details pun ada benda bakal berubah kah mun aku tauk? Mun ku sik tauk benda sebenar, ada ku kesah juak eh. Sebab level tok belom perlu aku kesah gilak ku rasa. Tapi yang bestnya, dia buat kerja tip top!

4. Orang yang memang layak.

Walaupun dikutuk dari belakang. Ada orang bantah penglibatan dirinya. Dia tetap buat kerja dengan penuh sabar dan mantap. Buat yang terbaik. Dia tak cakap pasal si pengkutuk or even mention (aku suka!). Berlawanan dengan jenis yang tarik diri dan kemudian jual banyak cerita pula. Obviously dpt lihat pihak mana yg menang dan kalah.

Aku rasa poyo sebab mengulas benda ni. Haha. Tapi berada di dalam sesebuah organisasi memang akan berlaku situasi yang gaiiiiii. Ah rimas.

suka kutuk aku eh

2010-08-02T10:29:00.000-07:00

Sesungguhnya kita ada banyak kawan. Ada kawan boleh pakai, kawan tak boleh pakai, kawan pakai buang, kawan tak terpakai dan macam-macam lagi.

Isu kali ini adalah kawan yang aku rasa dia nak kutuk muka aku tp jual nama orang lain. Hahaha. Muka terkutuk rupa-rupanya aku. Tanak kasi details sebab melibatkan 1 Malaysia. Biar lah aku menelan pahit nya.

Cara kutuk ni simple sahaja. Ayat takda budget.

Ada budak kate muka awak ni macam tetttttttt (ala2 kena censored) lah, erin.

Ok, aku boleh terima. Tapi yang tak boleh blah adalah, dia cakap benda tu banyak kali. Amboi2. Nak cakap 40 kali kah sampe muka ku benar2 kedak tettttttttt ? Sikpa2. Aku gohet jak.

And, sebagai balasan (balasan lah sangat) adalah kawan aku tanyak aku...

Eh. Si A tu ada adik down syndrome ka?
Pahal?
Tak da pa, muka dia pelik je.
Hahahaha.

Tapi, takda la aku nak kecoh cakap kat si A yg ada org kata muka dia layak ada adik down syndrome. Hahahahaha. Takpe. Aku kutuk ko kat blog ni je lah. Takla ko terguris sgt sebab ko tak tahu. Keh3. Tambah dosa indah aku. Hu.

labbing jer

2010-08-01T12:01:00.000-07:00

agak menarik apabila saya berhadapan situasi ini.

Orang 1:
mesti ko salu g clubbing nak??

Orang 2:
club ney ko salu pergi??

Orang 3:
kitak g clubbing sik?
aku jawap sik dan disusuli soalan ini plak,
mok g clubbing sik?
aku jawap sik

haehae. ya jak la tek. tp alangkah molek nya sekiranya soalan adalah begini.

suro ne ko salu qiam??

yerrrr. amin amin. insyaAllah. tambi dah byk kali sound. hauhauhau.

tapi yalah. saya pergi labbing jeeeeer

hm. saya rasa tak salah g club pun. cuma berpada jak lah since orang padah jgn dekati maksiat since ada type yg pegi tandak2 je, dudok buang masa pun ada. tapi susah nak cakap sebab tak g clubbing pun still buat maksiat. bukan takat dekati je!! buat!! makanya. tepuk dada tanya seleraaaaaaa. zaszz.

Kagum

2010-07-26T09:07:00.000-07:00

Pada hari ini saya berasa kagum and noticed byk perkara. Pada hari ini saya telah pergi ke fakulti, masuk lab dan tak tahu nak buat apa. Jadi saya follow sorang sahabat yang course lain (simok padah, kantoi lak, mun ko baca, baca la, ikhlas dari aku, hehe) dan ikut bontot nya ke sana ke mari.

Nak dijadikan bahan blog, aku kagum dengan lab assistant (LA) lab lain. Bukan nak merendahkan LA lab aku yang dahulu2. BUKAN. Tetapi seriously salute lah dengan LA lab lain! Aku notice yang mereka-mereka ini adalah insan-insan version rendah diri dan sentiasa mahu tolong orang. I was like sooooo sakai nemu mereka-mereka ini. The bond is there too! Tapi maybe masalah aku juak yang jenis ambil sik kisah and sekda initiative untuk mengetahui dan diketahui. Makanya, aku sik ada rasa bond itu. Hm..

Aku perhati bukan dari seorang LA sahaja, thats why aku berani nak kagum dan salute dan bercerita di sini. Ada 5 LA aku temui hari tok and commitment mereka marvelous.

Cuma jauh di hati aku.. ada baik buruk benda tok. Kami (erm. course aku lah dan warga lab kami. ehhe), i noticed that, we learn the hard way, sik manjak and we managed to learn more. Survival lebih tinggi. Mostly polah semua kedirik. Ah, salute ngan kedirik. Walaupun banyak salah. Hahaha. Itu masalah juga, bodoh sombong tak nak bertanya dan sesat. Tapi itu cerita lain.

Yang paling obvious, LA lab tersebut akan bertenggek di lab memasing dan ketiadaan mereka adalah sesuatu yang dasyat. And kami pula, ketiadaan mereka adalah biasa dan kewujuan mereka adalah satu yang rare (bagi aku lah). Ok, cukup di situ tanak lebih-lebih ngomen.

Tapi as if aku jadi LA lah, aku pun akan ikut style our LA, let them be (the students) !!. And students pun rimas as if ada orang watching over them. Besides, korang dah besarrrrr (as if aku tok tek LA la).

Ok. Aku happy aku kagum ngan orang. OHohoho!

lemah jiwa ku

2010-07-21T05:39:00.000-07:00

Manusia tidak bertanggungjawab. Itulah isu yang ingin saya ketengahkan pada hari ini. Untuk kesekian kalinya cerita mengenai gate rumah saya. Previously, byk cerita mengenai gate aluminium kami. Agak bodoh lah. Tapi saya tak cerita sebab tak ganggu idup saya. Kali ni, isu gate ni kacau idup saya.

Ceritanya, gate kami kena langgar lari pada jam 5 pagi butak. Memang bengkok abis dan menyebabkan kerugian besar dan menyusahkan hidup harian saya. Sebab? Since gate itu bengkok melengkong, gate tak dapat bukak and kereta saya stuck situ. Bodoh nyaaaaaaaaaa. Dan kesian dengan abah sebab terpaksa spend duit lagi untuk membaiki gate tersebut.

Begini la keadaan sadis gate itu. :(
boleh diat where the exact lane untuk gate itu bertapak.. lari abis.
and my car almost kenak juak

Saya kesal macam mana manusia boleh langgar sesuka hati saja barang orang lain. Takpa, gerenti dia kena balik nanti. Allah Maha Adil.

Hati panas lah sebenarnya tengok benda camtok. uRgh. Duit bah. Though bukan aku yg bayar. Hurm................... Moga-moga gate cepat siap. Aku sik suka drive keta yg 8 seaters sebagai alternative kereta ku yg terkandas ituu.

kata hati:
dolok, gate kenak angkut @ dicuri. then gate the other bahagian kenak langgar juak.
now kenak langgar dengan lebih dasat. what's next??? pasang pagar electric dowh.

takut

2010-06-29T10:59:00.000-07:00

teringat dengan rumet yg saiko..
time aku takut @ terkejut. beliau akan berkata..

ha..!!! ttttaaakut?
tau takut?
takut tak? ha takutt tak??
takuttt..? takutttt!??

gila nya ya.
haha.

bukan apa. aku tengah takut tok.
takut setelah di discouraged.

duak discouraged.
ssorang courage.
aiseh men.

wa. takut! sgt takut.

Kata hati:
tapi aku maok, aku rasa boleh, mok jadi lain dr yg lain tp takut makan dirik.

Kata orang itu:
The excitement is here now. Can maintain study mode for another 4 to 5 years? Or take master in 2 years and earn a living at 3000 to 4000 monthly. And take phd securely later. And have everything at a younger age.

benda yang saya cakap ini adalah converting master to phd.
ada pros and cons.
yang..
bikin saya sgt takut.
tapi maok!

Convert

2010-06-19T00:29:00.000-07:00

Gik gago ngan proposal pake sambong master.
My supervisor (SV) ada rekemen convert master into PHD.
I was like. Ouuuh. Hebat nya munyi.
Boleh ka kamek, Dr?
Then, Dr padah. Why not. Me, Dr si anu anu pun converter juak.
Once again. Ouhhh. Hebat nya munyi.
And, terus rasa sungguh possible.

Then. Ada pendapat menyatakan,
Since PHD adalah doctor of philosophy jak. (Eh. ada indah work JAK ya!).
Mun mok kerja kerajaan. Sik pelu minatang ya. Mun mok jd lecturer, OK, DO IT.
Tapi mun mok super upper jawatan. Mesti la pelu juak nak, kjaan ka sik. private ka apa.

Lagik pun advantage gila dpt save setaun or duak mun lucky dpt convert.
Masters 2 years. PHD supposingly 3 years.
Mun convert Master to PHD - boleh bikin within 3 - 4 years.
What if i manage to do all of it in 3 years ?
Chiahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!
Berangan.
Tapi part berquality ka sik sungguh la subjective. So no comment.

Yang part ruginya..
Mun convert, ku stuck rah sia jak. (UNIMAS le)
Teringin juak kedak akak2 and abg2 lain yg di sponsor unimas ke oversea untuk PHD.
Tapi, perlukah semua itu??
Mungkin perlu untuk jd lebih berquality.
Tapi, aku percayak;
Mun ko nang berquality, sine2 ko d engkah. Ko tetap akan berquality. Setuju tak?
Jgn la beri alasan untuk diri anda yg tidak berquality itu. (eh. terasa diri sendiri)

Kadang-kadang. Terfikir.
Apa tujuan ku belaja tok bah?

No 1. Mok rasa mudak. Kah3.
No 2. Mok lamak2 manjak makan beras free rah umah. (nang ada)
No 3. Mok rasa pande la tek. Belaja tinggi. (bena tok, tp simok la rasa jak. mok pande menalah, tp sejaoh ney ka pande ya. sik la madah pande. tapi kira tahu spesifik lebih sikit lah dr org lain. mok jd "PENAUK".)
No 4. Asa best juak mun ada master ka phd ka.. Lain sikit. Up sa ku tek. Dari ku asa up ngan benda lain. Tak gitu. Self satisfakkksyown.

Salah satu syarat2 mok convert2 tok tek.
Finding research yang mantap time satu tahun setengah petama time master...
Makanya. Dari aku merapu2 dan berangan2 rah sitok.
Bagus aku memantapkan proposal aku and meyakin diri bahawa aku boleh.
Setaun akan datang saya akan post update lagik berkaitan post ini.
Berjaya atau tidak saya convert.
Jeng3!

Kata hati:
Sik salah berangan nak oh. Ada la few person la komen2 merapu @ negative rah aku regarding this matter. Kecoh a lu! Ada ku kesah...

Checkmate

2010-06-18T07:13:00.000-07:00

Lately pande main chess indah. Apa ker?
Strategy aku belasah and berani mati jak.
Masalahnya, aku sik nampak gne nak check mate.
Gago gik opponent ku madah. Wooooo. Checkmate dah ko ya.
Boleh pulak aku susun strategy banyak2 tapi aku sik nampak gne nak mate kan King opponent?
Banyak kali gik ya.

Dari sia. Terdetik di sanubari aku..
Camya ka hidup aku eh?
Huha sana huha sini. Tapi. Nadai oleh.

Then terfikir hal proposal.
Ntah2 aku dah siap, tapi jiwa ku jak memberontak madah benda ya belom siap.

Tiba-tiba ku takut. :(((((. Aku takut aku sik 'nampak'.
>.<

description

2010-06-08T23:30:00.000-07:00

i don't describe myself.
i won't say i am a positive thinker.
i am bad in allocating my priority.
etc.
because things change.
sometimes salute, sometimes pelik,
why some people easily say they are this and that.
yala, dengan wujud nya facebook, friendster, ym, mirc (eh makin back to the basic, lol)
people become more berani gagah perkasa telling this and that.
including myself lah. bulak sik. :P
i did line out something about myself
but prefer people to judge and to tell me what i am.
kinda fun to hear stuff bout yourself.
eh bukan fun lagi, memang best.
lantak la buruk or baik. kan?
besides, agak membantu sebab.
there's thing we thought biasa2, okay2, takpa2. buat la lagi dan lagi..
but veryyyyy sensitive or sik bagus la di kaca mata budaya negara kita.

makanya,
keep on expressing ourselves.
tak kira di mana atau bagaimana.
response akan byk, terima la seadanya.
since itu memang la gayanya.

and i wish to tukar slowly bad things, um my bad habits, gitu2.
ingin berubah jadi lebih bagus. untuk diri sendiri, koarge and partner saye.
tetibe diriku ingge kelake begini.

till then. sesi luahan hati time proposal tak siap lagi. ws.

Hadiah

2010-06-07T21:26:00.000-07:00

I made one big gaban2 decision yesterday.
Which was selfish.
I don't care.
Am not regretting it. Unleashed!
Then today, that person gave me this...

Telling me hope this won't be the last hadiah...

Nya always gave me hadiah this kind of version. Oh you know.
Version2 sensitif tapi meaningful. No need to explain lebih2.

My fav telekung also fromnya.

Which makes me 'lekat' to him somehow.

For sure dpt differentiate a guy yang main-main and a guy serious-syit with you guys nak.

I've made my selfish decision but still hanging due to his post-reaction/response/acts.

Being with him and leaving him.. Both making him sick. I'm the problem eh.

Ah........

I'm sad tengok nya sad. But i'm not myself.

So, for me tepuk dada tanya selera lah.

Kata hati: Sik sampe ati mok type mantak2 the decision sitok.

Tahniah Erin

2010-06-04T01:45:00.000-07:00

Ha.
Today i would like to congrate myself as my so called 'temporary high'
towards someone had ended.
It was cleared that there was nothing and i was not looking forward into it.
Happy somehow eh. But the journey was not a waste and it was meaningful instead.
The end of it was faster than i thought.
Now i know how to handle such feelings. :)
My tips : Desperate Tips somehow berjaya.
A lot had been learnt and a lot should be perbaiki. Erghh??
I mean myself...
Need to be less selfish.
And, mcm2 lagi.
So back to normal heart beat life & looking for new temptation in life.

Gahhhhh.

Is it really ended cause I am sure that person still revolve around me in many years to come. What ever it is, once my heart determined that it was not it. So it won't be it. Jeng Jeng Jeng !

Suara hati:
A couple requested me to delete their photo album in FB..
Theirs gambar kahwin actually. Made me sad somehow but respect their request.
Made me sad. I don't know.
Maybe rasa bersalah uploaded their photo without permission.
Sorry. :( And, lain orang, lain cerita.
RRrrright.

perspective lagi

2010-05-27T19:23:00.000-07:00

Dengan sik rasminya. Aku d invite oleh SV (supervisor) ku untuk further Master. INVITE okae. Bukan aku yg berkareh (jual mahal nampaknya erin, aokla, nang aku berkareh sama bah!!). Aku minat mok berkerja.. Applied tutor for Pre-U in UNIMAS. Tapi sekda updates punnn. Sekda kenak contact punnn. Dak pre-U students pun dah start or nak abis orientation pun. SIGH. Jadi, aku berjuang untuk Master lah, gikpun, invited, macam2 dijanjikan. Janji2 manis & pulangan yang lumayan so far yang d taburkan rah aku.. Ehem2.. Dijanjikan.. Jejejje. Banyak details ku mok cerita tapi, biar nya berlaku dolok, buk best cerita. MUhahaha. Takut sik jadi, pande bencik indah dengan post tok kelak? Lol.

Aku dah ada title (rahsia lok). Gik polah proposal. The plan, jadi RA (research assistant) kejap. But bukan RA, tp suroh start terus ngan title, sebab masters lambat gik start.. So, back up things by jd RA la. Dalam diam, me & SV akan fight for the prestigious sponsorship, sponsor UNIMAS ada few level, so aim for the best katanya (rahsia gik lok, mun dpt, ku cerita detail, mun sik dpt. boh tanyak update cerita tok. whahaha). Sik rugi. Bergaji bah RA. So, rasmi ke sik??? Wallahualam. Will do my best.

Rasmi sik rasmi.. Tapi kata tambi, mun gik dealing ngan dak professionals, should be okay. Tapi yalah, malang nak sik berbau and tuah manusia sik nampak rah kaki or tangan or sine2 lah. Huhu. Pande2 lah erin. At least for now aku ada plan jangka masa panjang yang aku have to stick to. And then move with the flow (masalah & duka lara & drama2 sikit, haha). Mun sekda plan, ada aku umor 30 pun gik lom ada papa. Besar maksud ya. Susah juga tu ye kawan2.

Just dalam ku berhadapan dengan benda cemtok tek.. Aku telah dicucuk oleh kata2 orang lain. Macam2. Antaranya,

'Janji2 manis jak ya'

' Em.. Sekda mena invitation ya. Opposite attraction ya.. Biasalah.'

Lamak2 tok aku yakin aku chosen (eh perasan) berdasarkan my enthusiasm & my spirit bah. Tetiba ada orang kelaka kedak ya ngan aku. Aku macam. Eh, mcm dalam TV lah. Khakhakhakah.

Then.. Aku macam er.. Yakah? Aku tok cepat cayak kata orang. Mun aku sorang2 nang senang la kenak enjen. So, untuk mewaraskan otak, aku salu discuss balit ngan tambi. Bla3. So now dah waras. I took it as a complement and advantages pun mun benar.

Sebab mun benar... ADA AKU KESAHHHHHH? Wahahaha. Sebab yang bukan style or niat aku mok nak pelik2. Tak gitu. So, spt biasa. Shouldn't be a problem.

Agak menarik menerima byk komen dr perlbagai perspective. At least la palak aku bergerak sikit. Ada drama sikit, ada juak benda nak d update rah blog tok. Hahah. Jadi material la pulok dohhh. Hm.

Aim aku time master.. Join Mai and Jaafar yang active ngan activity unimas. Hohoho! Maok!! Tapi yalah, wajib ada season nerd.. Aku akan dudok bertapa depan laptop merugak journals... Doing my writing.. Playing in the lab for 48 hours non-stop.. Ececeh. Aku rindu lab. Tapi, I am sure that zaman lab untuk master adalah contrast to degree. Huhu. Kuatkan hati erin. Erin selalu boleh!

ok. sekian terimak kasehhhhhhh.

Tips desperate

2010-05-27T11:48:00.000-07:00

Ha!
Ada tips bagus punya niih
Pernah angau? Sik pernah pun.. Mmm. Baca jak lah.

Cara2 mengatasi angau.

Jawapan skema.
Fikir rasional.. Sik nya suka ko.
Sia-sia jak usaha ko kelak.

Jawapan desperate.
Ha... Jumpa nya tiap ari. Sampe boring.
Embak nya lepak bla3 sik peduli sekda benda nak d kelaka. Adoiii.
Diat nya.. perati nya... sedetail nak mampus sampe u spot the not!
Hahah.
Then fikir rasional balit.

eh lupak,
jgn kenja mok playing hard to get,
paling takut terkenak dikpun..
mun mok continously flirt.. boleh jak kot.
tp yalah, kelak memakan diri,
sapa merana????
si kenja juger..

ok bye.

pre-graduation mode

2010-05-26T04:00:00.000-07:00

oh oh oh kayy.
ada duak bulan gik aku mok grad.
tarikh grad adalah 10.10.10. wow!
hopefully fakulti mek orang pun tarikh ya lahh.

so pre-graduation mode is operasi mencari baju lah!
mesti la mok kacak on that day.
ne tauk bertemu jodoh. erk.
eh. suka la melaram.
bukan selalu.
gikpun.. mcm ku sikpat jd tutor.. sob3..
mun dpt, dpt la ku melaram selang sari pergi ngajar student.
hhuhu. kantoi sikpat melaram everyday.
high maintenance u knowwwwww.

jadi jadi. neda tempat lain mok carik selain dr google..
antara impian saya untuk attire grad adalah spt berikut..

Kim Kardashian rocking mom @ high waisted jeans !

Ini fashion saya byk suka!! Semualah. Baju, sloa and the heelss.
Tapi mesti ongkos tinggi mun mok carik seloa tok. Tapi sikpa. Aku akan usahakan juak. My persenol wardrobe pun nang lom ada sloa tok. So, akan usahakannn. Lalek la beli ka or polah.
Im a good tailor. Not! My mom ler.

Next, LL in kilat2 man like pant. Eh sexy lah.

Tok suka juak tp mok paha kecikkk & kaki pjg. Mun sik. Hodoh lah. Haha I like the idea kilat2. oHohohok. Which widening my paha which is alrady widen.
Tapi, macam KK tetap pujaan hati. Eish eishhh.

Oh., Who the hell is this. Lupak. Yang penting. Rambut ituu.

Suka rambut tok. Tapi suka juak rambut ala2 eva longoria pun sexy curly bob.
Tapi tok rilex gik. Eva mcm antap gilak mok g event. huhu. And the make up!
I'll try to copy paste lah thou muka lansong la sik sejibikk..

Malas la pake baju kurong. Typical. Boring.. Even fashion pun.. Rimas lah. Mok pake seloa jak lah. I sukeee jadi sexy sophisticated woman. Ouhh. Seducing.. Hm. Aku mok grad sbenarnya. Pahal aku perlu jd seksi kah? ada kenak kick dr dewan. uh uh. Lalek lah. Janji i bahagia. Seloa... Senang berekot mok begamba sia sitok. HohohoOho. cant wait.

Ehh. Berangan jak keja. Results dah keluar. Happy la juak walaupun sesungguhnya orang lain melatop latop jak results. Kawan india ku.. 3.93. Apakah!??
Hahaha!

K lah. Hopefully aku akan jumpa yg aku carikannnn Orite.

Keluh kesah kejap

2010-05-20T21:55:00.000-07:00

sanjungan ke atas insan2 istimewa

aku ada pendapat..
aku sik suka menyanjung orang telalu tinggi
kerana. apa sik tauk apa akan terjadi pada masa depan.
who knows. that particular person akan tersungkur molah dajal etc.
nyonteng muka ko make arang kah.
aku sik suka sanjung but aku akan lebih kepada bersyukur atau ngucap terima kaseh.
sekali or duak kali or mayb tiga kali,
aku akan coba elakkan penyanjungan melampau.
kerana ianya kadang2 amat mengingga kan.
(sebenarnya aku tengah ingga la tok)

orang lain dah tahu. cukup lah.
tapi itu mungkin cara anda. memuji memuja segala 24 7.
selain itu, sanjungan.. menyanjung tinggi.
aku rasa better lagi lah kalau pake hormat lah.
sanjung tok entah lah too big kali bagi aku.

sekian berita lemai ari tuk.

eh blom. ada gik.
aku bakal namat degree.
along this post-road..
i will rcv many demotivating critics
as i am still nothing. still budding.
hands on pun sik power. theory pun limited.
but taking them as a challenge.
pushing myself to the limit

hmm.. nothing much la degree.
just during the final years, baru 'merasa'.
so nak merasa level tinggi sikit..
master? kerja?
huhu. depends.
but macam more to masters.
makanya. doakan kejayaan kita bersama-sama.
both roads should be okay and wise...

*tetiba teringat kata2 dahulu kala, abis degree nikah. now? sekda rasa papa. hahaha. nikah indahhhhh. jaoh gik cerita. tapi congratz kepada geng2 yang nikah this june july etc2. semoga murah rezeki! :)

Part of the life list

2010-05-18T15:43:00.000-07:00

those few days.
weird stuff hepen. sad stuff hepen..

learnt...
no need to rush in life
enjoy so it wont be a burden
never riak with what we've achieved as others might contributed to it. tengs to them. appreciate them.
be the first, special and different.
excel in what ever condition
love your mom.
buat lah benda pelik2 selagi termampu as might regret it mun sik accomplished.
jangan serkap jarang.
boundaries boleh d redahhhhh je mun brani n niat betol. (tok mcm sik betol jak munyi, haha)
be cool.
we are not usually blessed in everything. so strive and try to survive!
we need variety & choices in life. if nadai, make them! look for them.
we need a break in every relationship, frendship, girlfriendship, boyfriendship, any ship i guess.

hurm. lastly. be brani... senang cakap, tak mudah nak buat. BERANI & BERBEZA.
and ayat2 skema lagi.. better to be hated as you are rather than being love for you are not. tak gtew..

emosi awal pagi rabakk

* akusalu otometik bgn awal mun adrenaline rush membuak2 dlm dirik. thesis ku lom tip top gik. boring juak ku ngenang..

temporary

2010-05-16T09:28:00.000-07:00

aku ada virtual boipren. bukan bf rah fesbuk. bukan! lelaki pujaan to be exact. it changes by musim. musim sekolah dolok, dr form 1 until 5 ada kali. Justin Timberlake. time ya nya lom hensem. agik ngan rambut meggi nya.. salu kenak anok pesen ntah apa2. tapi nya tetap pujaan hati ku. time nya dah kacak kinektok. i dont really mimpi2 him pun. pelik. dolok berusaha mok mimpi nya tiap kali b4 tdo. haha. apaker.

lekak ya. season ya datang kembali lekak angau mati time form 5 gya kali. season baru time unimas. angauuu abis. laki kacak koh. tp dah perati mena2 sik kacak pun. suddenly nya single, bebunga ati aku tek. tp lamak2. notice otak nya sik superb ney...... tp zaman tok utak memang penting, mun sekda sekpa juak, janji cashflow ada. sik pelu kaya. tp ada. eh ukai tegal duit ku angau nya tok. mcm la nya blanja aku pun mun nya kaya. aku hanyalah melukut d tepi gantang. haha. 1st time nangga laki hensem tek bah. tambah gik orang berik respon. suk menjadi-jadi. tp aku rasa aku tok perasan jak lebih. apakah gerangan laki hensem ya mok suka aku. hahaha. dah ngenang pemikiran dolok yg sempit sungguh memalukan. ada jenis orang, prefer bekawan dengan orang sik kacak.. 'senang' bah. bena sik?? bulak ktk orang sik penah encerik or diat. or ktk orang dikpun nang kedak ya juak!?? haha. ka ktk orang jenis yg kawan ngan orang sesama hot jak?? lol.

kakya. temu gik laki kacak. pergh. tp ne boleh lebih2. salah di sisi undang2 ya. haha. tengok dari jaoh jak le... berangan apa yg patut. realitinya ku tetap dengan yg satu. or dua or tiga? satu jak lah. sekda gik molah benda skendelism. zaman jahilliah ya.

apa yg isi hati ku padah adalah.. boy, you're my temporary high... then boy ya padah. you're not my temporary high (at all). haha. jahat nya kamuuu guys. cewah. apa ka...

kadang2. ku pande molah fantasi bulan madu kedirik. orang padah A. ku assume B. jeng3 ya sigek masalah. contohnya macam tok 'berisik badan kitak'.. aku assume jd benda lain "nya madah aku nyaman yaaa" kah3. ha. benda cemtok denjeres tok mun salu gilak berlaku. in the end tepok tangan sebatang jari then merinsak seorang diri.

sik tauk apa tujuan benda tok dtulis pun. nak bukak pekung di dada sendiri kerrrr? sekda pekung ney. sekda ku padah ya sapa. padah penah minat. penah angau. kejap. sik lamak benda cemtok. 2 3 bulan ilang la nya (lamak wehh) tepaksa la ku nunggu 2 bulan gik pake angau latest ya ilang. haha. sik senang mok handle ok. tp mun sik d layan. sik la kot.. tp dah terlayan.. angau la juak..

k lah. berhati-hati ngan perasaan. kelak makan dikpun. okae. part2 begini boleh meretakkan hubungan yg sedia ada kerana kemungkinan kita (to be exact aku sendirik lah, wahha) akan over react ngan gerek kedirik request nak pepelik. tak gitu..

sekian. berjumpa lagi dalam ruang selamat lemai kita. ws.

kenak sound

2010-05-15T09:50:00.000-07:00

kesekian kali nya ku molah nama ku jaik dlm era study tok.

wuh. sedeh nya akuuuuuu.
aku suka to play around. but yalah. not everybody can be plei plei. and mayb the wrong person. the wrong time. the wrong hierarchy. the wrong relationship.

aku jarang kenak sound2 tok sebab aku salu nya diam n sik daring.
suddenly these few months.. sem last tok lah. suka polah bodoh. bodoh with maximum climax-ity

antaranya selamba jak jadi timba mencarik perigi. heheh.
dah orang terkenen kenen. aku try nasip lah. so, jawapan nya kenen2 itu hanya tepok satu jari. bukan sebelah tangan. tapi satu jari. hahah. tapi aku ok jak. jgn sik tauk merasa kenak rejek? haha. rejek kah. sik juak. RINDOK ATI TEST MARKET. tapi yalatek. market low. wahahaha. sikpa2. ssebuah kisah klasik k masa depan aku.

then. lately, selamba aku kaco some1 totally 'higher' than me?? ala. bukan apa. everyone huha huha about it. aku join la. tp seolah-olah aku la 'ketua' benda ya. and.. jaik nya aku lah. huhu. memang salah aku. apa boleh buat lah. bukan rezeki aku final year. dah kenak sound. nyaman rasa wai. apa benda d sound? biar lah aku yg tahu. hehe.

tapi, yalah. daring sik daring. diam sik diam. semua ada pros and cons nya. mok belajar jaga maruah dirik dan maruah orang lain lah (baruk nak belaja??). cakap senang la jaga maruah, setiap word kenak intey oiiii. ok, learn my mistake. sapa suroh daring gilak. open gilak. tp sekda la ku kelaka pelik sampe bab2 maruah tok. huu.. tp. wa. dah kenak 'label' la aku tok.

mun kenak blacklisted sik tauk lah. nauzubillah. putus networking ku kelak.

bah2. hormati orang kalau nak dihormati orang lain. baiklah!

u can totally feel it when a person really really really really really sik senang with you even with just few words. scaryyy. -.-

what done is done. just do the best untuk masa depan.

Made in China

2010-05-06T09:14:00.000-07:00

rajin ada i update blog oh. baruk rasa 'free' setelah setel final draft of my thesis. tinggal presentation jak gik..
ok kali ini. bercerita tentang china made punya barang..

sejujurnya. saya suka pergi kede murah2, kede bodo2. alaaaaaa. kede duak ringgit ya bah. tapi nektok dah pelbagai nama. 100%? and. sik tauk apa gik. sik pelbagai pun. lupak lah. Hehe. tp u know i know ngarei jak kede 'cemya' nektok nak. tok ala2 aktiviti harus me and tambi mun dah sik tauk sine nak tuju.
sigek best kede camtok. dpt diat. howwwwwww far barang china tok leh pergi. alah. mun takat iPhone mini in china ya common gilak. I found something interestingtingting tek. Keh3.

Tadaaaaaaaaa!!!

Penadah baby makan yg paling raget so far!! Waahaha. Ada 'penakong' pake barang makan gugok dari mulut baby gik ya. aahahhaah! Only cost u RM4. Mun Gwen Stefani meli tok mesti rega USD50. (pa ka muka stim..)

Cuba teka! Ini lah penggosok badan ketika mandi.. (tauk nakk. sikkan la sik tauk) Mesti ktk orang rasa sikda pa nak pelik. Aku rasa raget jak. Sebab benda tok dari SAYUR PETOLA. Yang paling SIK BOLEH BLAH, still ada bigik2 rah lubang ya. wahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ADoheh. Only cost u RM7. Eh mahal la Rm7 mun dari level kede rm2! XD. Aku kenal gilak ngan petola bah. No wonder petola tua susah nak d makan! Keras gilerrr benda tok.

GO Go Go China!!!! Entertain meeee. Yakin bena la aku benda tok suma dr China. Ntah2 local.. Hehe. Lalek lah.

oklah. cukup untuk kali ini.

when will my perspective change

2010-05-05T22:21:00.000-07:00

Tiba tiba saya suka tengok Astro Awani. Macam berita local nya lebih menarik. Sik terikat ngan sapa-sapa. Tapi still astro bawah siapa?? Ha, tanyak parents or orang berkaitan. Mun astro sik debah orang kuat. Mesti parabola n other tv satellite lain senang nak masok Malaysia. Ok. cukup di situ.

Nak berbicara tentang sesuatu. My perspective. I watched this berita. Betajok 'Polis nafi belasah' sedangkan memang ada video tuguk2 main dlm Astro Awani ya tekk... Sidak ngikat nemiak ya rah tosikalnya using handcuff and belasah rami2. 8 lawan 1. Wu.. I dont like such video. Nadai potong2 nyakk. Sekda senset2 muka sidak. Uh. Mcm sik patut d show rah berita jak. Tapi, nang membukak mata lah. What really goin on on on dlm dunia kita... Dalam movie dpt layan sebab nang lakonan. Maka, saya conclude.. Polis jaik. I hate polis sinun. HEha. sine kah. Malaysialah! Diamm jak ku lepas ya... Sik tauk pahal sedih and geram. Kesian kali.

Lepas ya, i talk with some1 bout this. And terbukak lagi sekali my brain.

U know wat, polis nektok, nang polah keja, they tangkap those ppl, drug dealer, progol, pbunoh, ragut, pecah rumahhh and sometimes or MEMANG SELALUNYAAAAAAAA they can do nothing... PESALAH still lepas balit. Balit rumah and start balit molah benda sik senonoh. And society keep saying that polis sik polah keja bla3.

SO, not they fault JUAK la such thing hepen. Dari kenak anok masyarakat, apa salah nya sidak merik PESALAH2 DURJANA tok 'rasa' sikit sebab sidak lah sidak polis jd tohmahan mcm2 juak (yedeh, emosi erin).

(lepas tok ada gik perspective madah polis rasuah then lepas then bla3)

(then lekak ya ada gik perspective madah bla3)

(haha. susah juak kehidupan penoh topeng)

Tapi nang benar. Pencuri tegar besi area umah mek orang (gate umah mek orang penah dicuri ok, lawak2, tp nang sial lah. pk murah ka gate??) abang polah repot n merik no flat keta sebab sempat diat, and polis boleh padah 'oh sidak ya'. 'nang sidak bla3'.

Heheh. Ntah la oh. Kenak macam ya kah.

So, persoalan nya bukan apa, when will my perspective akan menjadi wider.. Umur saya dah 22. Tapi apa ku diat rah tv, itu jugak la yg saya percaya.. Kadang2. erm. Mostly kali.. Jadi.. Saya harus rajin membaca dan menilai. Gitu ke? Anda mcm mana? Ka anda tak kesahhhhhh punnnnn??

ada aku kesahhhh? hahah. Wu. I need brain like someone ya.. Tapi nya dah tua, kali ya kali, orang dah lamak idup. Kita tok baru nak belaja idup bak kata sapikaaaa. K sekian!

ada oleh!

2010-05-05T04:10:00.000-07:00

ada oleh! wahahaha.

aku bz ada 'oleh' ok. ya ku lamak sik update. (mcm la rami gilak follower, whuwhuw). aku ada cerita, aku ada cerita!!!!!
baca tok lok.

Email 1

Dear Students,

You have been shortlisted by the department for consideration of various awards in the coming Convocation. This is based on your existing CGPA (excluding 2nd Sem final year). To allow the department and the faculty to process your eligibility, we require that you submit your CV to us as soon as possible (preferably before 30th April). To be successful for any awards, your CV must be convincing enough. Hence, aside from your academic records, we would like you to include all the extra-curricular activities you are involved in at UNIMAS.

We hope to get the requested information and documents from you before the deadline.

Thank you.

Eishhhhhhh. Rindok kuuuu. ahaha. Time diat subject email ya, "Requesting Your CV". Aku fikir aku dapat kerja jadi tutor Pra U rah UNIMAS, since aku apply bah ria. Hahah. Tapi dah anta sikkanlah sidak nak mintak lagik, nang loba! Daripada lecturer dikpun gik ya. Sak jak anta rah HR UNIMAS. lol. Sekali tek, more than that (bagi aku 'more' lah! weheehe) !! Yang lawak nya.. Lect ya lupak BCC other 9 students (10 la including me tek). So aku tauk lah sapa2 celen aku. LOL. 8 Chinese, 1 Indian, and 1 Malay (aku la ya. ku bukan tambi)... Ne tuju melayu lain kah. Aku pun sik tauk. Bangga kejap aku tek.

Then tadikkkkkk. Limak mei ari tok tekk. Ada sitek gik email..

Email 2

You are one of the Biotech students who have been shortlisted by the faculty (after yesterday's meeting) to be recommended to the university committee for convocation awards. As such, we would require you to submit certificates of your achievements, in particular, supporting documents for your extra-curricular involvement in unimas. Please send this to either Dr. AAS (nama d rahsiakan nanti dia google nama dia then dia baca ini pulak. ahaha, maluku.) or myself as soon as possible (preferably by today).

Tp sebenarnya lect ku tipon time ku ngeblow rambut.. Bukan ngeblow gerek.. Tetettt bunyi telepon.. Mintak hardcopy. Then nya padah now dah tapis tinggal 5 persons gikkkkkkkkk Ececeecececececeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhh!!!!!!!! Nang kembang kempis dadakuuu.

Ku korek la gik tek. Brapa itek sebenarnya awards ya... 4 itek jak... aku sik dengar gilak sebab dada dah kempang kempis. ahha. ku dengar censeler, naib censeler and ada sigek gik bunyi cam jaya kenyalang, wallahualam. Anugerah last ya pecah duak, bumi n non bumi. Maka, dalam 10 orang, aku sorang jak bumi, nang sigek gerenti la aku pulun nak?? Hahaha. Jangan ada chinese ya duhal bumi udah lahhhh.

Tapi mcm sekda fight la pulak. mesti ada orang kenja madah, la bumi, memang la gerenti nya dapat, dah nya sorang bumi. Eh eh ehhhhh. Diat list name mek orang lokkkkk. top 10 ya dari brapaaa students. and mesti al maklom IPTA mesti la bumi dominant rami (bukan dominant pande ok, huh).. jadi, wajar lah aku bangga juak nak MUN DAPAT anugerah nak khas k bumi ya tek. awwww. Mun dapat anugerah plg tinggi ya. censeleri ya.. hm.. aku cium jeraya unimas okaii!!!!!! aku ambik gambar sekali. wahahahaha (brani madah sebab nak other top 9 pun dah cokop malatop dia orang punya kepalak hotakkkkkkkkk!!) oh, lecturer ya dah pande, nya bcc kan nama yg lain. so aku sik tauk sapa other top 5. wek.

so, hopefully ada oleh extra la aku time convo kelak. selain dr nerimak sijil degree semata-mata. bangga la nait pentas duak tiga kali time convo. jgn anok aku sakai. aku nang suka. nasip lah ye.. (dlm ati tak orang mesti mok juak, yalah, dpt juak ngeso ngan mak abah. " Mak! Abah! Mek ada oleh 'extra' !! "). haha. lom dpt papa dah berangan.. cittt poraahh erin.!Tapi mun sikpat any anugerah. Hu. Sik apalah. Bukan rezeki la nak oh. Bak kata my tambi, now can depend on doa lah. Dah berusaha tek nak. :D

Backup untuk Si Lengai

2010-04-03T05:31:00.000-07:00

aku aku aku salu diat orang laki tok as lengai..
lembik jak.
lintuk..
kecuali lah nya nang tough and kerja buruh.
Haha

Tapi nak.
Ada sigek jak yang mampu menggugat jiwa walaupun;
badan nya kecik ka.
muka nya jaik kah.
idong nya kedak aku kah......

Perkara itu adalah.......!
Lelaki dengan laungan azannya..

waduhhhhhhhhh..... cair beb.
hahah.
pernah terjadi bah.
ntah apa benda di manas ku dengan saudara itu..
siap sumpah2..
bermasam muka ku sambil nantik nya semayang
sekali terdengar nya ngazan...

cuttt bunyi ati ku kecut..
then mata ku terus bepaling tajam ke arah sumber azan....
alu rasa zero-zero.
alu senyum kedirik.

yerdeh. alu jatoh cinta. hhaaha
jadi,
antara pendapat aku..
mun nak 'becarik' nak pattern ala2 ku cerita tek,
g la keramaian...
cam doa selamat kah..
makan 10, makan 30, makan 100 semua2 itu,
dapat 'diat'...
cehh. alu terpesongggggg niat.
sekdalah. pergi nang pergi ngan hati ikhlas..
tapi pada masa yg sama dpt juak usha2. yerdeh!

tetiba teringat dolok ada pertandingan azan..
nektok maseh ka o??
peringkat sekolah rendah jak macam.
time menengah sekda la pulak diat.
Best wooooo.
Ustaz test power sorang2 miak laki depan kelas.
Masyuuuuuuuk!!!!!
k lah. kelak cerita lagik. :D

*tajuk hiasan jak bah. Azan itu indah. :)

Sekda Title

2010-04-01T20:26:00.000-07:00

Salam sejahtera.
Saya nak bersusey lok ehh.. XD
Aku aku akuuu takuttt..
Takut ngan orang sekda title tok. Ahahaha.
Bukan title apa.. Ko single kah? Ko dabel kah? Bukan ya!
Tapi more than that.. Mun ko dabel.. Partner ko sejenis ka apa........................
uhuhuk.

Sebab.. ada few cases la.. Macam antap la aku terkejut tek knowing nun les.. Nyetok gay..
Bunyi cam sekda papa. Tapi mun dah nama kenalan. Mok mok terkilan juak 4 5 saat..
wuu. Takut indah..

Makanya, aku rasa aku prefer tahu dia gay or les awal2.. Senang MOK ADJUST. ahahaha
ne tauk.. kita sik tauk nak hoh. Kadang2 terlebih mesre le ape le.. Tak gitu..
ADJUSTMENT itu harus..
Mun gay should be okay.. Mun les. Adjust adjust...

Maggi Contest!!

2010-03-30T16:50:00.000-07:00

Jom TRY MAGGI CONTEST!!! XD I donno why ku excited gilak ngan benda tok. hhehehe KLIKKKK Hereee!

and this one, contest untuk Malaysians pun Black Eyed Peas nye kipas susah mati.. CLICK!!!

K. all the best!!

SCARYY!! ha, tau takut !!!

2010-02-10T10:06:00.000-08:00

Hu.. Fobia ku. :(

Story of the lab key... I'm sure the rumours is out saying final year student dropped lab key at faculty's carpark and found by others bla3 and they dont even know who was it. And ah. Its me. Aint cool. -.-.

Sgt bersyukur sebab kunci telah di jumpai oleh Proteomics Lab pun master student. SOb3. Thanks to you... Walaupun sik da police report and sik perlu bayar denda kunci yang almost cost me RM200, and sekda kenak ban from polah OT (or not yet), since the kunci telah dijumpai.. STILL, i LOST the key. Warkkkk.

Grateful juak sebab everyone handling this matter rationally.. Sekda pun aku kenak terngak ka.. Kenak uje ka.. Kenak pulau ka... Kenak jelin ka... (sik tauk la blakang aku, tp mcm sekda, amin sajalah, i trust them). Just kenak remind ada la, yang nang harus lah. 'Lain kali perlu jaga sepenoh jiwaaaaaaaaa!' Me? Hu, just being me and being responsible.. In case ada follow up action kah. Sob Sob... Rusak reputasi aku. (erin bereputasi ehhh. HWUahuhaeua)

The thing is........

1. How come no key duplicate as the management insisted madah sekda kunci time ku request tlg bukak lab dolok kedong ku sedang mencari2. Master key ada kali and lambat mun nak d approach..

2. Its not about who's holding the key, undergrads ka, postgrads ka' lab assistant ka. In my opinion. There must be a system where someone is in charge, a staff that memang available 24 7 just for OT. Tengok2 budak ka apa ka... And for sure, keselamatan barang2, students and oso open or close the lab. (bukan tegal kes ku ilang kunci ah!!)

3. And agak pelik lah, yang akan ngecek kevalid-an OT student adalah pak guard. Maksud saya di sini, mun malam2 ya.. Ppl say pak guard akan ngecek building, lab2.. Diat orang OT, then check students pun surat pelepasan untuk luar working hours.. Mun sekda surat ya, kenak halaw n report lah illegal.. Which sik penah gik ku diat pak guard cek nemiak. Huhu. Gerenti pak guard sesat dlm faculty mek orang ya. Heheh.

4. How come rega kunci ya almost RM200. Either itu adalah hukuman atau mun ilang kunci, there is no master key or duplicates for safety reasons (lab penoh ngan benda yg berega ribu-ribuan bah) and management will have to tukar the whole set of kunci thingy ya lah, tombol rah pintu ya sekali maybe.

5. If bena la sekda duplicates or master key.. WHY NADAI?

Hu. Just my 20 sen. Shouldn't be a problem if i wrote this nak eh.

Yang ku terkilan.. Orang lain kenak tempias.

Mayb next year tanak suroh budak undergrads buat ot lah..

Maybe from now on mesti ada postgrad baru undergrads boleh ada ot lah.

Haaaa. Undergrads ney sik bisin mun dengar ya (undergrad malas sik la bisin kali). Even now pun lab-mates dah mula bersok sek sok sek nengar ya. Uhu. I know how they feel. :|. But hell. things hepen. And i till now i cant answer the question " CAMNE KUNCI LEH TERGUGOK? ". Sapa tere sila jawap.

Complimentary Buddy

2010-01-28T00:23:00.000-08:00

Al maklum lah budaya ber assignment.. Ada assignment by pair.. ada by sorang2.. kadang2 4 persons per group or even 10 per group.

Agak sukar pabila group kecik2.. 4 persons ya agak kecik bagiku since mek orang salu ber7 or 8 since students ramai.. So. Lecturer nak permudahkan menge-'tick' paper.. Lalu lah less groups with more members.

Nak di jd kan ceriter.. Mesti le kite memileh 'kawan' di saat2 nak molah assignment. Very the jerak lah apabila mendapat parasite di dlm kumpulan. And yg lebih membengangkan apabila itu adalah 'sahabat baik'. Ptuih. Baik lah sangat. Boleh pulak msg ngan aku 'what ever lah erin' time aku tanyak2 tentang assigment ya. Just few hours before presentation. Sikpa.

Ok sambong balit. Dah almost 3 tahun study, mesti la dah kenal juak ngan dak coursemates, even sik rapat. Tapi tauk gne hows their attitude and credibility. In the end, kita harus jadi pemilih. And sungguh sik salah perbuatan itu. Harus jadi selfish mun mok score. Pa lalek mok jaga hati orang mun sidak sik mok jaga hati kita? Ptuih lagi sekali.

Lalu, berusaha la mengorek sana sini try ajak orang yg kita trust and boleh harap jd group member.. Tok cerita 4 members jak tok. Plan awal aim si A and B. Ok dapat. Syukur. Bukan melayu and A sgt active while B sik brapa. Ok sik kesah. B ya bagus kerja walopun nya pendiam. Sebab penah juak bergroup ngan nya. So. Baruk 3 orang termasok aku. Jeng2.. Carik2 gik tek. Temu sorang duak tiga. Tapi dah berkumpulan lain. Ya ku sik kesah.

CUMA...

Ada yang buat lawak la pularkkkk. Complimentary buddy! Huahuahua. Mun mok group ngan nya mesti ngan sorang nun sekali. HUahuahaua. And even ada yg berterus terang madah sikpat takut nyenun kelak bla3. Aku respect orang pande jaga hati kawan. Sungguh berbeza dengan aku. Time ku jaga hati sidak, jaga lah.. Mun sik, sik lah. Im not perfek and not stupid too. Ceh. Cuma kadang2, sten ap fo yerself la oh.. Sampe bila mok jaga.. Nyenun sik nyaga hati u pun... Tapi ada jua tatkala macam kesian pulak tengok yg jadi complimentary buddy ya. Macam sekda orang maok ngan sidak jak.................................. Bukan nak nganok. Sendiri mahu tahu lah.

and, there was time.. when someone wanted to join my group and that person tanyak by 3rd party la ( my other group members) and said that.. "Mok join ktk orang... Tapi mesti erin sik maok nakkk..."

Jadi. Adakah aku begitu antap berwatak jahat???????? jahat kah aku. wu... in the end. Konklusinya.

Ada aku kesah???!

Mesra - Susah bah

2010-01-14T08:03:00.000-08:00

Susah lah mok jadi mesra.. And aku lah mangsa nya. Kwang3. Gne owh. Dolok ku nang jenis polah sik tauk jak hal tok. Tapi lamak2 tok guna terima pakai juak la apa kata orang. Mok2 mesra juak la kita tok!! Hahah. Mun sik, syuh2 diam jaoh2.

Begini ceritanya. Antara azam taun 2009 ria nun tek. Mok jd mesra bah. Mun temu orang, mun dpt senyum lah tego lah which agak jarang la ku polah. Ego sekali jak. Nang pondanlahh. Mun nang rapat, memang la tego. Tapi mana yg sik brapa, for eg; each other tauk sama fakulti, tp sik tauk nama. Salunya ku tundok nangga lante or mata tegak ke hadapan jak lah.. Hahah. Awal taun 2009 ya tek macam sik menjadi jak.. Just ujong2 taun tek tang ada pande berubah..

Tapi sik semua perubahan ya ngembak ke benda positip. Ngembak kemaluan ada lah. XD. Meh saya cerita. Its always hepen to me.. Time mood ku bagus.. Aku akan tego la orang mana ku kenal or kenal gia2... Time meli sayo ka.. Time becarik selepa rah spring kah apa ka.. TAPI NAKKKK. Time ku tego ya ada 30% sidak sik kenal aku... Wuh Wuh wuhwuwhwuh. GNE NAK MULAH YAAA???

Dengan tebal muka la terpaksa ngenalkan dirik agikkkkkk. Ambekk kaww. TAPI YA KIRA OK LAh.. Since ada juak nak yg sik sempat ku perkenalkan dirik since senyum and angkat tangan time berselisih and orang nak d tego ya polah muka dekkkkkkkk jak rah aku!!!!! Hahaha. Sibei juak lah kondisi itu.

Tapi tapi tapi. Walaupun segine-gine pun keadaan. Apabila aku sik tego orang yg aku kenal ya and noticed orang ya noticed aku.. Perasaan bersalah amat tinggi.. And jikalau aku tego tp nya sik kenal aku.. Aku tetap puas hati sebab aku dah polah apa yg harus d polah. Malu belakang kira just nyaman rasa hati sebab aku sik sombong. Hahaeh. Sik tego orang pun kira sombong la nak.

Makanya. Teruskan usaha untuk mesra erin walupun muka ko samseng! Baiklah.

Housemates ku. Sorry la jd model. Kanan ya Bill. Yang nang rami kawan. Sik tauk sine nya oleh! Haha. Ya pendapat aku lah. Sebab mesra kot??? Then kirik ya Sha. My rumet. Ya lagik la samseng mukanya dari akuuuu. Tapi nya ya. Ya ampunnnnn. Jaoh seribu kali gik mesra dari aku. Alahai. Entah lah. Huhu.

My Car Lost its Virginity

2010-01-09T08:49:00.000-08:00

Hai. Im 22 now. Walupun belum birthday. Macam bulak je umur 22. Now dah final sem kat UNIMAS.

Kelas sikit jer..
Monday 0800-1100.
Weds 1100-1400
Friday 1000-1200

So the rest .. Spent it on my Final Year Project! SPENT ok. Thats mean i already spent it! LOL. Though it was only the 2nd week of the study week.. Rasa dah lamak jak as been spending my time at the lab since last sem... Rasa mcm sik puas ati jak mun dudok rah bilit at kolej time sekda kelas.

This sem.. G kelas kejap... Then g lab... Pasya balit kolej.. Hurm.. Then kepak.. Thank god ada housemates yang semberono. Sik berasa la gilak kepak. And sik berasa la juak dunia nerd. Ada juak aktiviti tho sik la seraget orang lain... Ala-ala kadar janji mek orang happy and sentimental. Yer.. Hahah.

Keta ku di puley cina. huu..

Today tek, g 'molah' my so virgin-car.. Apa ada duit gugok dari langit last few days.. Ku salu jak rasa sik puas hati since duit cepat jak abis tapi sik berasa or cam sekda hasil.. So, pa kata buang duit rah benda nang ku pake tiap ari... Antara benda ku tepuk adalah.. tinted ler, ambik Air Cool, mok polah solar cool. The price is dabel on wat am willing to pay.. paling cikai pun 680. wa! Tunggu lah ku berkereta mewah.. So aku amik nak ala kadar.. 380 rengget.. sikpat Solar Cool, ambik la Air Cool. haha. Brand Ais Cool pun ada tek. LOL. Tapi sikpa. Brand ku beli tok ada warranty 5 tahun. So.. Ok lah bah.

Pasya pasang alarm keta.. 315 rengget gik. Steel Mate brand nya.. keta ku nang 'kosong' bah time beli. Oh u know i know lah. LS shotform keta kamek.. retinya. Low Specification. XD. Pasya reverse sensor.. Dah semua benda scratch buk nak berbeli sensor... Sikpa. Nasip lah nak.. 130 juak benda aneh ya. Ada d rekemen cina ya ber LCD indah. DUunak. 300 ajak pake reverse sensor. sik ku betah. Pasya termakan juak ku kata2 cina ya meli wiper. Tapi wiper ku nang kruk keruk jak munyi nya time d pake. Hahah.

Ngeri dengar nya padah RM600 woo cermin depan kalo u mo tukar.. Itu wiper kalo burok mo kasi u punya cemin skresh woooo. So. add another 45 rengget. Pasya... Blind spot. Salu jak kakak bisin2 keta tok byk blind sepott. So beli cermin ya tek. Spesel aie. Nya wide angel. Bukan stakat panjang. Tapi cemin ala berlengkung gtu. So add another 28 rengget. Then engkah mi megi dlm keta as pelapit kaki. haha. Tikar getah itu.. Rm20 per kaki or meter. Lupak.. So 90 rengget for that.. Pa gik oh? Dapat minyak wangi keta sigek. Ceh. So there goes my 1k today... Sak jak set duit rm600 jak rah keta. hu. Sik apa lah. Once in a decade jak. kwang3...

E72.. bila ko mok jd hak milik aku.. Hu. Mun beli ko.. Terbang gik duit. Sikpat savings lak. Dunia ini penuh permintaan.... Bukan pintaku begini.

And, dah keta bertinted tek nak. 70% ok. lekak pasang buk tauk nya 70% -.-. tp ada warranty. Lalek lah. Nak lawaknya. Ku nanyak abg sia ne slepa ku lekak sidak siap masang... Nya madah sekda pun.. Dah ku masok lam keta, ku polah sign tangan 'sekdakah?' rahnya pa nya lekak masok dlm kede nya balit.. Tapi.. pulangnya BABAI aku indah. waduh2........... Hahah. In the end. ada bah selepa ku.. debah seat. hu.

My tambi la. Susah ambik gamba orang itam tok.

K lah. Thanks to tambi la together spending or wasting time at the kedei keta today.. went there at 1 done at 6. Pa alarm ya sik nemu lubang and wiring keta gik virgin............ K till then.

FInal Semester

2009-12-25T09:55:00.000-08:00

Apalah nasib ku..
Makin nya bermasalah makin nya lari..
Bukan pande carik aku.
Kecik ati ku..
Hu.
Rindunya..
Perasaan bencik nang ada.
Tapi bencik ya sejam duak jam ilang.
Rindu ya sik ilang.
Bodo ko erin.

HELP?

Bagus juak sem dah nak start.
Sik sabar melungak muka housemates.
Polah la mcm2 aktiviti..
Polah la bz2...
So aku sik mencari2.
Kesian nya.
Aku aim for ANC jak gik tok
kwang3..
Anugerah Naib Censelerrrrr. Kahakha. Chancellor ka Counselor? haehae
Adalah la orang ya cabar ku dpt 4 flat final sem tok tek.
Mun ku dapat gne? Haha.
Ah sudahla..
dpt ANC pun dah cukup.
Sekda benda lain gik nak k aim..
K ngidup hari2 ku..
Itu saja la..
Aim saja la..
Dari sekda polah papa..
Hu..
Get a life lah erin.
Aok.. Saba la..

Kini aku pasrahhh dengan segala nyaa.. (Irra Fazerra kata mak padi tadik. ahaha. )

X(

Kecik Ati

2009-11-30T09:05:00.000-08:00

kecik ati ku ngan unimas. setauk pengetahuan aku.. pengetahuan aku jak lah. most university celebrate their dean list students. but not anymore for unimas. kecik ati bah aku. and mcm sik dihargai jak. nektok unimas gago ngan MAPU MAPU MAPU jak. Majlis Anugerah Pelajar UNIMAS. tauk ku anugerah sia nang boom boom pow semua. bukan calang2 orang nerimak. mun takat score exam babai jak lah. nya mok active sana. wakil itu. wakil ini. ala2 huha sana huha sini lah. so ya kali majlis anugerah dekan ya sik di polah agik. wuh. not fair. aku neda achievement lain yg membanggakan di unimas. aku neda wakil papa. sik pernah ku embak nama UNIMAS ke peringkat yg membanggakan sampe TNC angkat kening rah aku.. tapi yalah, anugerah dekan ya jak lah. walaupun orang padah apa jak la anugerah dekan ya. menimbun jak orang nerimak time majlis. nang penoh dewan bah. eh excuse me. ko ada nerimak kah madah gia?? gago. and yg lebih sedeh gik. last sem, cam biasa la ambik sijil ya rah opis fakulti. tapi, sekda file, file ya la raget, sama keras and almost sama rupa ngan file konvo. keras yabah. either merah or blue jak kaler nya. ku tanyak, kenak sekda file tok kak. then sidak padah ambik dikpun rah opis sigerr gik nun rah apa nama nya oh. pra-siswazah pun kaunter, gia2 lah. hu. makin la ku kecik ati. :(

me in unimas jersey. a never come true dream lah. kip on driming.
eh. can u see ' JIMAT OI!' ? LOL.

ariya

2009-11-29T09:04:00.000-08:00

Ariya g KL bah. Sakai kelua sarawak. Tedah ko erin. Pergi ariya pun sebab borong2. Mak bukak butik. So, aku plan mok shopping lah. 1-2k dah ready mok shopping. Bemati-matian ku jimat sem tok tek okayhhhhhh. Spend rah minyak and makan jak. Tup2, ku spent around 500 jak. Sedih gilak2 sebab mcm lah selalu pergi! Makan, transport & tdo free gik ya, yala, dah ekot orang tua tek ariya nak. Mun kedirik pergi babai la duit. Sik sempat shopping sebab gago ngan borong ya la, sopping sikit jak. Dlm 5-6 jam jakkkk. Waawaawaa. Sigek shopping complex Keyhell nun mok d jalan pun makan sari for each suping kumpliks.. Tok, aku soping 5-6 jam jak?? Haha. Rahsianya, NO TRYING, beli jak! Tapi alhamdulillah semua sedang/muat. :) Cuma ada sigek slepar jak.. Sakit d pake mun lamak2. Hu. Tapi time try, neda orang try sampe 15 minutes! XD Yala susah berjalan ekot burit orang. Wuwuwu. Tapi sik apa lah. Aku pun berborong juak ariya. Dalam setiap borong baju, sigek aku la pun. Hahaha. Murah gik ya. Kelak ku update rah BlogShop ku or Facebook ku lah. Malas mok taip lah lamak2 tok. Diat gamba ariya jak lah. :)

Sitok la syurga memborong. Jalan apa? Ne leh padah eh? Ahaha. Minumum beli a dozen or half dozen le. Tapi baju teenagers senang kit, dpt beli ekot 1 pattern ekot ada brapa kaler. Boleh angkut by set. Mun baju busana muslimah, ya ampun, byk songeh. Size sik leh campo la, sigek kaler mesti angkut 6 laaaa. Macam2 la! TAPI TAPI. Each kede provide different stuff. SUMPAH SIGEK KEDE PUN SEKDA BARANG SAMA. So, masing2 ada pelanggan. And sik boleh ambik gambar sebab takut ada ada orang curi pattern.. Sini hanya untok wholesale je. Menempel jak rah pintu masok padah WHOLESALE ONLY!!!!! Malas nak melayan customer retail.

Sik leh gamba konon. Selamba jak ku gamba. HEhehe. Abg kenak tego cina ya time ngambik. Tedah. Sak jak orang amik gamba muka patong, bukan baju.

Haaa. Tok lah the ultimate-oleh / ultimate goal aku time pegi ariya. Haha. Beli body + 18-200mm macro pun lens (betol ndak kah). Sik tauk mok padah papa sebab ku ne tauk gilak hal camera. Mestilah sponsored by abah.. Aku ada share 3% jak kali sebab aku bayar nya pun polarizer jak. Kah3. Gamba tok diambik ukan apa.. Sebab kotak tok sikpat d mbak balit.. Hu. Babai kotak. Luggage mek orang melampau gilak dah..

Bell Boy nyusun bags. Nepat embak kedirik time cek out.

Mak & Abah. Bepeloh dah abah nyusun bag dlm taxi. Rambut abis spray. LOL.

Jeng3. Bags time balit nang brani mati lah. Ada 7 bags.. Mostly around 10kg each.. Paling berat pun 24kg. Hehe. Rabak bahu ngembak ya... Tapi abah la embak. Aku embak 6kg back pack (baju soping aku, bukan borong) and 14 kg tarit-bag.. Nama je tarit!! Time nait belon nepat tarit. Manuaaal lahhhh. Alu 'pecah' masel lengan kanan on the next day ~.~. Dah la pre-book 45kg jak. Kwang3..

In the end, 50 kg masok cargo. Lain2 bawak tangan. So. Each of us carry 3 bags. Mantak2 AirAsia madah sitek sorang. Aku yg embak 1 bag pack, 1 tarit-bag and 1 bag plastic oren Jakel dengan selambanya terlepas time entering perlepasan ya.. Abah yg ngembak 1 bag besorrrr hitam + 2 bag plastics Jakel pulak kenak tahan oleh AAsia workers, disuroh masok kargo. Ne maok!! Beg itam ya la yg 24 kg.. MIahaha. Darab Rm15 each kg dah berapaaaaaa... $_$

Sebagai pelajar UNIMAS gemilang, selamba jak ku kelua balit... Padah rah kastam, My Daddy is LOST. Hahahah. Lalu lah d suroh keluar agik. Lalu ku capai 2 bijik bag plastic Jakel dr tangan abah and masok balit time si pekerja AAsia ya gk gago. Huauha. Cepat2 ku jalan sambel nyusun 2 bag plastic itu kelihatan seperti 1 dari sudut pekerja AAsia ya pun counter. Keh3. Nasip dak kastam jenis sik gago. Gago mintak no tpon ada lah. Yerrrrrr. Pa entam tetinggal hp time scan. Sengeh2 jak la. Dah la kantoi tesasol. Boleh pulak nanyak "Cap apa hp cik adik tu??" Haheha. Cap Ayam kali nak bang.

So. Gya jak lah. Tok bukan melancong so sekda gamba kacak lah. View pun common2 jer. Huhuhu. K, till then.

.erinulat.

Dear Muslim

2009-11-27T13:42:00.000-08:00

HUhu. Jangan nyaman2 jak nak makey ayat Al-Quran as ringtone ohh even niat kita bait. :)