Betrayal and Humiliation

Posted on | Thursday, March 31, 2011 | No Comments

Small matters or simple stuffs can cause betrayal and humiliation. Opkos...

In a cassette store. This was very long time ago. When I was very young. My friend was paying for her cassette then the cashier asked me if I'm interested in any. Dengan asselambabadaknya my so called friend replied:

Dia? Dia tak beli. Dia takda duit.

Terbaek! Might be nothing to you. Plus I was in primary 2 or 4 like that. But to me, it was a big deal. Humiliated gila walaupun memang benar aku sekda duit. Tapi, perlukah?

Next story. I used to be friends with beautiful girlfriends. I don't know how they end up stranded with me. Anyone who knew me tauk lah aku golongan yang tak berupa sangat. So one day, me ttheir family members and as I got back home, one of the family member asked,

Ya la Erin tek? @ Tu la Erin ek?  in a geli tone. 

Pergh. Kinda weird as it was told by my friends themselves, couldn't you guys just simply kept it to you guys ? Heh. Maybe done purposely or maybe we are being transparent. But, uh, my heart. Sob Sob Sob.

Next situation. I was playing kite at the sea with abah. A friend saw us from far. Then, that person commented, 

Hey! You look beautiful from far.
Hahahaa. Ok. In a short range @ depan biji mata kepala I am fucking ugly la. Hahaha.

But hell. I can laugh on those things now. I've been meaner and worse, even now still. How i wish to stop as i do know little things do affects major things. But as the environment are full with those weird energy I have to buffer everything.. True -ve should be with +ve energy.. But sometimes it doesn't work that way... -ve should be with -ve..... ukik (ukik = u know i know, hahaha)

And. Everything now seems like revenge. Fb-ing and Twitter-ing on things that shouldn't be public. I don't know when @ how to stop as things simply happen. To remove the post or comments, I have that certain ego not to do so.

Less status update and less useless comment might be a good start ?? Why not.

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