byk keluarga terdekat ninggal but bukan 1st degree lah. i did not went to any of it. i cant help it. mesti ku nangis mun diat orang lain nangis. ko ada??? sik tahan ku. bukan ku malu nangis. sik ku malu. tambah gik malas. ketulahan abis. dah sik pergi rasa bersalah. 

part paling dramatic time orang engkah mayat dalam kubur / tanah or apa2 ktk orang tunggah. anak laki2 akan nyambut rah debah ya.. rapat sik rapat dengan yg meninggal. berderei juaklah aek mata. time ya ada la anak2 or si suami / isteri seolah olah simok 'melepas' orang ninggal... sob3. bergenang indah aek mata ngenang senario itu.

sik tauk lah apa mok d padah juak tok. tekedu kedirik sik pergi ngabas hormat terakhir kepada yang meninggal. tang ada turn kedirik sekda orang pergi. nauzubillah. 

bak my partner owes said, jgn d sedeh gilak pemergian seseorang ya. mayb ya suatu kejayaan untuk dirinya. wallahualam. al fatihah untuk wa, mak nek, pak nek. nek yong, nek ud, su on, & bang wel.

my room  in unimas became a run away port for me. when i'm home. there will be so much things to be done. from simply mengemas-ing to being kak kayah n abang mos businesses personal assistance. being dragged into things or matters that should be or should not be meddled. which i loveeee to, when my mind at ease lah. but when my lab work is at peak. o no no no. it would be study + business + pleasure.  they mix wrongly. end up at the wrong turn lah oh. i hardly focus. my lab bench and room at home will mengarei! it ain't easy to do everything but i do wish to do everything. i am greedy.

 

one of my bestfriend, her asrama become her heaven as she have no proper room at home. hurm. i believe everybody ada their own issue and blues... 

its easy to run away, but usually i don't really kempang ati to do so. though am at college, my heart is at home. thinking bout the langsir, rumput, the kitchen, dpt catch up ka dak mak with the customers today, etc. how bout you? feel so freaking happy gila babi away from home ? happy being less emotionally involved  with home-based drama ? uhuhu. i love being both, away and at home. :)